oh dear! more of sam's rants are here

u know there's an actual problem when

okay so i was in class and i was sitting next to that guy i have a thing for and he would normally talk to me but instead he was just facing front so i was like cool whatever gives me time to do my hair without seeming rude

so i throw my hair up in a pony tail, not thinking much of it

a minute or two later that guy i have a thing for looks at me and does the double take thing and me being the stupid ass hoe i am ask him "what? what's the matter?" and he's just like staring at me, kind of in awe and i'm like genuinely confused and i'm like "did i do something?"

and just looks at me for a second and goes "no, i just haven't seen your hair up in a while"

and i guess that means he likes it

but the thing is

i go  immediately to thinking something is wrong every time i get any sort of attention

and when i got home and thought about it

i cried

because someone actually thought i looked attractive and wasn't just saying it because they're my friend

society is fucked up