The Insiders

Part 2: Ponyboy's POV

I was crying and crying and crying. I couldn't control it. My head started to hurt, my cheeks were hot and wet. After a few words and speeches from the gang, we finally went to the car. Darry was driving and soda was in the passenger seat. I was in the back, as always, but I didn't really care. I had my book on the seat next to me, but I wasn't in the mood to read it. I just wanted to sit there and think. I put my head against the window, stared outside and wondered. I was thinking about earlier in the day when I realised something. Johnny's parents didn't show up. Two-bit said that he told them and they said they'll "check their schedule" but I doubt they even considered it. They probably just ignored the invite and lived on with their lives. When we got home from the car ride I went straight to my bed to lye down. I was in so much pain that I felt no pain at all. Like when someone gets punched and it hurts but it's numb at the same time. Like when I got jumped, or like when Johnny got jumped. Don't think about Johnny, I thought to myself. Whatever you do, don't think about him. It's so weird, that whatever I think about, it always leads up to the thought to Johnny or Dally. I Hated it. I probably fell asleep after because when I woke up it was early in the morning. I rolled over in my bed to look at the time and it said 6:31am. How long was I asleep. I looked out the window and it was pouring outside. Sodapop came, ripped my blanket off of me and told me to wake up. We ate breakfast and I quickly got dressed to go outside on a walk. I always went on a walk with Johnny, so I didn't know who to walk with now. No one understood or listened to me like Johnny did. I guess it was fine to go out alone, if I'm lucky, I might not get jumped. I left the house when the rain got lighter. I've never had a walking experience quite like this one.