Since We Were 18 ⭐Nouis⭐

Chapter 27

Niall's POV:

I dropped Maya off at her house and quickly drove back to Harry's. I walked inside and slammed the door behind me. I heard footsteps coming towards me as I wrapped my arms around myself.

"Niall what happened?" Harry and Liam pulled me into them.

"Louis. Louis kissed me." I squeezed my eyes shut trying to forget the feeling he gave me. I knew I still loved him but now that I felt him again it brought back all our memories. All the long nights we sat and talked. All the days we spent together. All the small touches and kisses. I missed all of that but most of all I want to forgive and trust him again.

"Wait I thought you were out with Maya?" Liam asked and I nodded.

"I was. We went out to eat and when we were leaving Louis was there. We got into a small argument and I pulled Maya outside so that we could leave. But Louis followed us and he kissed me and I miss him so damn much." I looked between their eyes and shook my head.

"I miss him. I miss him so fucking much. I miss him and I love him and I need him and I can't go on without him and and and...." My voice slowly trailed off as I began to shake.

"Are you cold?" Harry asked and I shook my head.

"N-no."

"Niall you are shivering." I shook my head quickly and squeezed my arms around me.

"N-no I'm not-t. I'm scared-d." They both looked between each other.

"Are you going to...?" I stood up as straight as possible, trying to regain my self. I didn't need them to worry about me.

"No I can't anymore. I have to stay strong for my kids." Which was true on so many levels. If I started up again imagine how Connor would feel. If i went too far and died, they would end up back in that shit orphanage. I heard a door opening and quickly jumped to Liam and hugged him.

"What's going on?" Zayn walked out and over to us.

"Niall are you okay?" I nodded and pulled away from Liam.

"I j-just really re-eally love h-him." I looked down at my feet. It was strange since I wasn't crying. I didn't even have tears in my eyes.

"Louis?" I nodded slowly.

"He has hurt you so damn much why do you still love him?" I kicked my wet shoe on the floor.

"Because he still loves me." I glanced up at Zayn's eyes before continuing to look at my shoes.

"But what about the girl?" I took a deep breath in and looked up at all of them.

"He said that since I gave my ring back he has ignored her completely."

"How do you know he wasn't lying?" Harry asked and I shrugged.

"He'd never lie to me. He might avoid the truth but he would never lie." I sighed and looked back down.

"Niall I think-" I shook my head.

"No I love him. I am so deeply in love with him. Maya is a sweet girl but I feel nothing. Just one touch from Lou and my body is set on fire with an entire zoo running around in my stomach. He makes my knees weak and my heart thump but I love the feeling. He's the only one that can do that to me." All three of the boys glanced between each other.

"He wasn't there for you."

"I know. But he has learned his lesson and I believe that if me and him did get back together... He wouldn't do it again." Liam sighed.

"If that is what you believe then we respect you for your decision."

"Yea but maybe you should give Maya another go." Zayn added.

"But-"

"Niall, think about what Connor tried to do. Louis hurt him, and you, so much that he wanted to die." I shook my head.

"It wasn't just him. There was people at his school that beat him and shit. That's why I took him out. He seems a lot happier since then too." Zayn shook his head at me.

"He stole a cigarette from me a few days ago." I squinted my eyes at him.

"What?"

"I had just bought a new pack and had it in my dresser. Then when I woke up there was one missing and him and Troye had left." I shook my head.

"Just because one was missing doesn't mean that it was him. Maybe you had one and just forgot about it" He ran a hand through his hair.

"How about we play a game to get our minds off of everything for a little while?" I shrugged

"Alright what game?" Zayn smirked at us.

"Hang all I will go get it." He ran off through the house and I turned to Harry.

"What time do we have to leave tomorrow?" Harry shrugged.

"I was thinking we head out around one." I nodded.

"I'm going to go change and take a shower really quick. Tell Zayn that I'll be right out." I started walking to my room and shut the door behind me.

I picked up some sweatpants, boxers and a normal t shirt and headed to the bathroom. I stripped and showered quickly, washing away everything but my thoughts.

I wish I could change things. I don't know exactly what I want to change but I know there is a lot I would do differently if I got the chance. Maybe I would force Louis to stay home more when he first started leaving a lot? Maybe I would've just told him that I didn't feel the same when we were teenagers. Perhaps I would just hide that half of my sexuality my whole life and just marry a nice beautiful girl?

I stepped out and dried myself off. When I was dressed I heard my phone go off and reached over to see who it was. Deep inside I knew that I wished it was Louis.

M- tonight was fun! Maybe we could do it again sometime?

I sighed. She was super sweet and stuff but I don't know if I'm really that into her anymore. Seeing Louis really did bring back all my feelings for him.

N- yea maybe

I walked out and back to my room to set my dirty clothes down before walking out to the living room. The boys were no longer there so I headed to the dining room.

Liam, Harry, Kennedy, Zayn, Dani, Perrie, Brady, Stacy, Troye and Connor all sat around the table with a game sat up in front of them.

"What's this?" I asked and they all smiled at me.

"Quelf."

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