Shine Bright Like Diamond.

23: Regret Of Mistakes

Diamond POV(Danny and Freya in MM)

"Buh...why?"
"We're really sorry Daya. Its just we wanna live and move on. We've been here for so many years... That's why Danny and I thought of leavin' everything behind includin' the Tully's in your care coz we know there's no one better than you". I felt silent cryin' hard. They've been part of my life ever since we move here for the past four months, they treated me like family when no one did and now, they goin'?.
"With you gone, how am I gon' take care of this place? Who's gon' keep watch Akiylah whiles I work? Who's gon' be... Oh God... I can't accept this". Danny hugged me tightly.
"We know you can. You strong Daya..." I cut in shakin' ma head.
"No, you know how weak I am when it comes to facin' problems buh you guys were always there to encourage me".
"We understand you Daya buh you've gotta get this straight that in life, nah everyone stays forever with. Some has gotta go no matter how important they are to you. With our absence, I wantchu to be strong coz you got it in yo' kid. I know someday, we'll be proud o' coz for sure you gon' make us proud". He smiled with tears in his eyes.

Oh, imma miss them sooooo much.
"I guess there's no changin' your mind". I shrugged sadly as they nodded slowly.
"See baby, we may be gone, buh I know we ain't absent in your heart". Freya said sofly before plantin' a kiss on ma forehead.
"I love you both soooo much and imma miss you guys soooo much". I hugged both of them in tears.
"Love you too baby''.
"And am sure gon' miss ma lil' pumpkin". I giggled knowin' he was referring to Akiylah. Havin' them around me has helped a lot so I wonder what it would be without them. Because I was in some bad mood, I walked.

As soon as I began, it poured. Shit! Things can't get any better. Drenched to my bones, I arrived home.
"Where. Da. Hell. Are. You. Comin'. From?" I heard mama's voice as soon as I entered. Her voice sounded... Harsh. Okay, maybe am trippin' or she just worried. I removed my leather jacket and hung it on the coat stand. Just as I was 'bout to answer her, she smacked me hard.
"Am askin' a question and you just stand there?!" She yelled at me. I was shocked to the bone.

"B-buh mama...". She cut in.
"Shut the fuck up you how! Oh, ya think imma pamper yo'? No way! All I did was just actin'. I knew if you get outta here, you'd go to those stupid bosses of yours buh now that they goin' you all alone baby. The only place that you've got, is here".
"Why mama? Why?" I asked in tears.
"Coz I wantchu to suffer. You can never go on coz you know why, you worthless! You nah important to anyone! You stupid HOE!" Just as she was 'bout to smack the hell outta me, Taffy stopped her and ran to me.
"Stay outta this Taffy!" She restricted angrily.
"No! You have no shame in treatin' her like this. All Daya has ever done for yo' is work for you buh you, Da hell! You've just been smokin' and drinkin' your damn ass around!"
"How dare you?!" Mama in anger smacked Taffy too hard. I gasped in shock.
"You know what mama, the person who's useless...is YOU!" Taffy retorted angrily. Mama cast a dark look at me before takin' a quick flight upstairs. Once she was gone, Taffy knelt beside me, consolin' me.

"Am so sorry for draggin' you into this... This is all ma fault'' I cried hard seein' Taffy's reddened cheek.
"Its not your fault Daya". Buh I shook my head strongly.
"You wrong Taffy, this is my fault. I shouldn't have trusted mama. I was...I believed she could change... I wanted my mother back buh Ion get why she do this to me Taffy". Taffy hugged me tightly.
"Its okay Daya. You can still get the hell outta o' this god forsaken..." I guess she doesn't know.
"No Taffy, this is all I have. Am stuck with mama and all this insults and beatings. Am destined to be like this... Pathetic". I spat angrily.
"Quit sayin' that Daya. You've got Danny and Freya..."
"No Taf, Danny and Freya are goin'...they leavin' here for good...they leavin'... Forever Taffy". I cried from the very pit of my stomach remembering I'd never see Danny and Freya.
"GAWWWD! This is so... No Daya! Even so, you've got to move on, you've be strong for Akiylah and for yourself!" Taffy spoke strongly in tears.

"Buh Taf, ion know where to start. Am nah strong enough for my baby". Taffy touched my chin liftin' my eyes towards to her teary face.
"We here for you. Me, Montana, Tamina..." The mention of those two made me chuckle
"Zenny, Wade, Leslie and most of all, you've got your baby who's proud of you and loves you sooo much".
"Oh Taffy, thank you so much". I quickly pulled her into a tight hug as if she was gon' slip from my hands. She had just made me feel less sad. At least, all is nah lost coz no matter what, am never alone. I've got ma baby sister, ma daughter, ma friends and of all, I've got God and he ain't leavin' ma side never.

Buh deep down, I feel regret. Regret for not followin' Taffy, Danny and Freya's advice in nah trustin' mama. I made a mistake nah movin' outta here to Danny and Freya. I guess I would have been movin' out with to Chicago. Still, I regret it all.

The regret of ma mistakes...

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