Si Emerson at si Leia

11. God's Time

Oftentimes I hear people saying that everything will be all right in God's time. Or that eventually everything will be okay. Or if it's not, then it's not yet the"eventually", not yet the end. Honestly, I didn't know what to believe. I chose to be skeptic on the concept of God's time, or if everything will really end beautifully. As far as I was concerned, not all endings are beautiful. Or even supposed to be.

I was hurt. Deeply. You know, the pain a betrayal can bring is unlike anything else, because it's not an enemy who does that to you but a trusted ally. The time I made known of the betrayal a special friend (whom I loved) did to me was too late to restitute the damage dealt. It was too late I had to give up. I was devastated. But time heals everything. And the time I forgave her had come, and eventually the hurt was gone. And I thought that maybe, that is God's perfect time, that it heals. But I read in Ecclesiastes about the time of perfection. "God made everything perfect in its time." And I grasped the idea of His time, though I couldn't comprehend it quite entirely.

One day, I met this girl, Leia, in a bookstore carefully searching for a title. She instantanly caught my attention, and so I followed her silently and glanced at her many times. When she looked at me, I immediately randomly picked a book from shelf and acted as if I was reading. But she went near me. At first, I didn't know what to do. I even closed my eyes for a longer period than a blink. Then she asked me for the book that I was "reading", and after knowing it was the book she apparently was looking for she begged me for it, in a quite amusing way. I gave it, of course, and she thanked me. When she was walking away, I suddenly remembered the concept of God's time, and thought that it wasn't long. God's time is a fraction of a moment, happens within a second, a blink of an eye. His time is an opportunity of perfection. I called out to her, and asked for her name.

She didn't give it right away.

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