Maddie's POV
I left Beatriz in our house without a word, the determination written in my eyes enough for her to know what's going on in my head and that is, to talk to Pauline.
Here I am jogging my way to their house like I'm running out of time. The adrenaline rushing in my system. Now or never.
When Beatriz was asking me all of those questions that almost made me strangle her to the ground. It was a torture just imagining those things. It's hard to fathom.
Right in that moment I know that I'm not okay about her being with someone else. I want her all to myself, I want to call Pauline mine.
Hindi pa naman sila ni ate Amy. I still stand a chance. I'll make her like me.
I returned manong's smile when he opened the gate for me letting me in. It was a short interaction between us for I am in a hurry to see Pauline.
I don't want to give myself a time to contemplate things for I might lose the courage again.
Tita Duday appeared from their kitchen, she's wiping her hands from the apron tied on her waist. She was startled by my sudden appearance.
"Oh, Maddie. Tamang-tama, I was about to tell Therese to call you. I baked your favorite." She said after recovered and is now smiling at me.
The thought of tasting her red velvet cheesecake didn't excite me like it always does. Pauline and the thought of talking to her is occupying my mind.
"Tita, nasaan po si Pau?" I asked completely ignoring her statement. She raised her eyebrows and has this playful smile.
"In the garden." She answered, I nodded before leaving her with an amused look.
I slowed down when I am nearing their garden. Trying to catch my breath and placed my hand on my chest feeling the erratic beating of my heart.
With light steps and gaining my composure back, I started walking again.
She always make my knees weak, give me butterflies in my stomach, and make my heart ache whenever I see her. And I find myself liking those. Because they make me feel good. Except for today.
For it's not the sight of Pauline alone that gave me those feelings right now. She's with ate Amy.
From where I am I can see them having their special moment. Something, they will never forget. That unfortunately is also something I can never forget. A memory that will always haunt me, a moment where I am sure my heart will always ache, but not in a good way.
My knees are weak, my stomach churned that made me feel like throwing up, my heart aches but the cause is not because of so much happiness, I am so sad.
I want to walk away but it seems like my feet are glued on the ground. I want to walk away to save what is left of me. I want to walk away to keep myself from hurting further.
Never in my life I thought it is possible for something to hurt me the way I am hurting just seeing them.
The sight of them kissing, yes kissing, became unbearable. This is the longest 15 seconds of my life.
Finally, my feet started moving. They are wobly that I almost got knock down if it weren't for Therese who's looking at me with confusion.
"Maddie, are you okay? You look sick." She asked and examined me from arms length still holding me.
"H-huh? Y-y-yeah." I managed to answer. Everything is such a blur but all I know is that I want to get away from here.
I freed myself from her hold and started walking again. She's following me so I picked up my pace, she can't see my like this. She shouldn't know. Pauline shouldn't find out I saw them.
