Let Me Teach Ya (Nemi)

You Before Me

Demi

I shut off the water and reached out to grab a towel. I stepped out and saw Nick walk in the bathroom, a little distraught. "What's up?" I asked as I wrapped the towel around my wet body and watched as he his eyes met mine.

"Are you....." He said as he started to trail off.

"Am I what?" I said as I left the bathroom and headed over to the bed to put on my pajamas.

"Are you pregnant?" Nick said as he slowly turned around and asked with a puzzled look on his face.

"Where-"

"Your purse. I was looking through your purse, for your phone, and when I opened it up, I saw the pregnancy box just sitting here," He explained a little more.

"You weren't supposed to see that," I said as I sat there on the bed just watching him. I watched as his eyebrows came together and his forehead crease.

"Why wasn't I supposed to see it? Were you trying to hide it from me?" Nick asked with a little bit of tone.

"No, well, I don't know. We just have a lot going on right now," I said as I looked down and played with my fingers. I stayed quiet for a little bit. Once the silence between us grew, I decided to speak up, "I mean we have had hospital visits, crazy ex-girlfriends, a proposal. There has just been a ton of different things that we have been trying to hurdle over, I just didn't want to stress us even more out by dealing with one more thing," I finished explaining. This time, Nick walked over to me. He sat down on the bed, and grabbed my hands.

"Demi, listen to me, I know we have had a lot of chaos around us, but I don't want you to go through things alone. I love you, Demi, and we are in this together." Nick said as he gave my hand a tight squeeze. I looked over and smiled. I could feel myself getting butterflies all over again. Nick sure did know how to comfort me and make all my worries go away.

"I love you, Nick, you know that?" I asked him. I watched as his lips turned into one of his biggest smiles.

"I love you, too, Demi," Nick said as he leaned over and kissed me gently on my forehead. I leaned on his shoulder and let out a sigh. "So, baby...can I go grab the box?" He asked, which made my heart suddenly race. I sat up and looked at him.

"Sure," I said. I watched as Nick disappeared out of the bedroom. He was gone for a few seconds, before returning with the pregnancy box in his hand. He handed me the stick and gave me a smile, "Go do your thing, babe," Nick said with a laugh.

"Really, babe?" I said as I grabbed the stick and rolled my eyes. I started to turn and walk toward the bathroom, but before I made it there I quickly turned back around, "Is this completely ridiculous?" I asked Nick, who was just watching me. " I mean, the doctor pretty much said I wasn't able to have kids. So why am I doing this?" I asked matter of fact.

Nick stood up and walked over towards me. He placed his arms around me and gave me a kiss. "This is not ridiculous and the doctor also said this is the best time for you to be getting pregnant so it is possible. Okay?" Nick asked as he gently smiled at me.

"Okay," I said as I turned back around and headed for the bathroom. When I got in there, I opened the package up and pulled out the stick to pee on. I pulled off the cap, sat down on the toilet, and took the test. When I was finished peeing, I put the cap back on the end of the stick and brought it to the table beside the bed. Nick the timer on his phone and we both sat there in silence waiting for it to go off.

Beep... Beep...

When Nick's alarm on his phone went off, we both sat up straight and looked at each other. I took a deep breathe, "Well, this is it... the moment of truth," I said as reached over to grab the stick, but before I could, Nick grabbed my arm.

"Wait," he practically shouted. I gave him a look. "Demi, just let's talk about something real quick. I want you to know that no matter what the test says, I am all in." He said to me. I couldn't help but smile. "Before you came into my life, I never knew that this was what I wanted. I didn't know I wanted a family and kids. I always imagined I would be stuck up in my office somewhere, overlooking a city, in different parts of the word. Now, with you, I see myself settling down and having kids. Lots and lots of kids. I see myself being a husband who can take care of you and being there for you. I see me being a father. I never knew how badly I wanted this, until this very moment, so again, I am all in this. I love you so much," Nick said, which practically brought me to tears. I wasn't sure if it was the hormones, or just everything that was going on. I reached over, grabbed the pregnancy test, and took a deep breath. As I looked down and read the pregnancy test, my heart began to race. I stared at it for a second or two and then looked at Nick. "What does it say," He said with a smile, trying to read the expression on my face.

"I'm not pregnant," I said as I handed the pregnancy test to him and walked to the other side of the bed. Silence filled the room as I pulled back the sheets and crawled in my bed. I turned off the light next to me and turned away from Nick so he couldn't see me crying. Nick tried coming over to comfort me, but I told him I wanted to be alone for right now. He respected that. He got up and crawled in on his side of the bed. He rolled over and left me alone.

I laid there, in the dark, completely devastated. Not at the fact that I wasn't pregnant, but at the fact that I let myself get my hopes up, get Nicks hopes up. I started to think about all of my doctor visits and how they repeatedly told me my chances of getting pregnant were slim. Then I thought back to what Nick said right before I checked the pregnancy test. He told me how badly he wanted to be a father. This made me cry even more. Nick deserves more. He deserves to have everything he's ever wanted and I can't give that to him.

As soon as I got my crying under control, and heard that Nick was asleep. I got up and walked over to my closet. I quietly grabbed one of my suitcases, loaded it up, and turned off the light. I walked out to the kitchen and grabbed a piece of paper. I wrote Nick a quick note of everything running through my mind and then reached over for my keys. I pulled off Nick's house key, from my key ring, and then placed the key on top of the note for Nick to find in the morning. As I walked over to the front door, tears were streaming down my face. I didn't want to leave, but I needed to do what was best for Nick. I needed to put his needs before mine and not be selfish. I looked around one last time and then shut the door.