Too many lies-Pretty Little Liars fanfiction

Chapter 46

Emily POV

I sat at the table in the courtyard at school and waited for the girls. As I waited I was thinking. Thinking about Maya. Thinking about her website that Mona gave us. I watched a lot of videos and looked at a lot of pictures that day before A ruined it, and it kind of helped me. A lot actually. It helped me remember that feeling of being with someone, that feeling of being in love. I missed that feeling. I wanted to have that feeling again. I didnt even think I would think about loving again after Maya, until now. I wish she was still here. And I would do anything for her to be back here with me but I can't bring her back. I will always love her with all of my heart, but I can't be with her. I wanna be with someone. I wanna be loved again.

As I was deep in thought I was interrupted by Hanna and Aria. "Hey Em" they said whilst sitting down. "Oh hey" I replied snapping out of my daze. "Where's spencer?" I continued curious as to where she was. Then on queue she came round the corner, she looked kind of stressed and upset. "Hi" she said in a deep slow voice. "Spencer, what's wrong?" Aria asked as she took a seat. She paused for a moment.

S:"...well tomorrow is the anniversary of Toby's moms death and he's just so down, which is obviously understandable. I went to see him at his house before school this morning and he was going on about how he should have been a better son and he should have made more of an effort to make her happy. He thinks it's his fault that she killed herself. And when I tried to tell him that it's not his fault he just starting shouting about how I don't know and how I don't understand. We argued and then it ended with me leaving and him slamming the door behind me and in class then I found out I'm failing Spanish and I got a B in history, a B. Oh and also I literally forgot to apply to college. The deadline is in a few days and my application is no where near finished and my whole day is just crap and I just feel eugh"

We all stared at her wide eyed as she put her head on the table and did that fake kind of cry you do when you just wanna give up. Then Hanna spoke. "Spence, Toby will be fine. He's just hurting at the minute. By next week you'll be top in your class in Spanish and you'll be getting A's in history, and you application will be complete and sent off. You know how I know that...because your Spencer freaking Hastings. And when you want something, you get it. So pick your head up stop sulking and work your ass off to get what you deserve. No one is going to do it for you"

We all looked at Hanna and smiled, even Spencer, as she just continued eating her lunch as if she hadn't just spoken. "Han, I really needed that" Spencer said with a little laugh at the end. "I know you did" Hanna replied. We all chuckled and talked as we normally would. Then Paige walked past. She smiled at me and I smiled back. I'd seen her quite a lot lately actually, it was weird.

Lunch passed and I had art last. I was so bad at it my artwork was like an insult to every artist that has ever existed ever. I would always get Aria to do my art projects and I would do her Chemistry and Physics homework. She's always been good at art and I've always been good at science so we help each other out. But in class I don't have Aria to help me. Honestly I don't know how my teacher doesn't realise I don't do my art homework. Anyways, as I was painting away I heard a familiar voice beside me. "Nice..." she said trailing off her sentence because she had no idea what I was painting. It was Paige. "It's supposed to be a bird but it kind of just looks like colours smudged on a page"

"No, no, I could totally tell it was a bird" she said smiling. I laughed at her sarcasm. "I haven't seen you in a while" I said making conversation.

"Yeah I know, I haven't been at swim practice lately. I'm failing some classes so coach said I have to get my grades up before I can compete again"

"Oh, yeah I've been in that position before"

As we were talking the bell sounded and we packed our things away. Paige's phone rang. I didn't mean to listen in to her conversation, but I did. "Milk and bread, yeah got it...oh I'm with Emily...no mom she's just a friend...yes mom....okay bye." She hung up the phone. I was curious.