I Wish You Knew [Haylor]

Chapter 54

"I never meant to hurt you like this, and you know that." His raspy voice echoes in my mind while I'm texting him.

I don't know what has gotten into me but every time I closed my eyes, I picture him there, holding a flower, smiling really wide and that was the most beautiful day of my life. I could careless about this right now and I should, It's been a week since that happened but I can't stop thinking about it.

The flashback start playing in my mind when I closed my eyes. I'm haunted by the memory but it was a beautiful one and I didn't mind that I think of it once in a while.

// Flashback //

"Taylor just believe me." He said. He's closing my eyes with both of his hands and I can't help but feel alone, it's dark and shallow.

When I entered the room, I could feel a cold waved going trough me and maybe it was just because I'm scared. Harry told me to stop and he let go of my hand, I searched for him, confusedly and anxiously.

"Harry, this is not funny!" I cried out. He shush me to calm me down but that doesn't even help a little bit

A music starts to play, loudly. I then realized where I was, that thing he gave to me was a concert ticket and I feel so dumb that I haven't realize it till now. I smiled, still closing my eyes tightly. There is actually no need to close my eyes because i already know what it is.

"Open your eyes now." He said sweetly and I opened my eyes.

He's standing there, smiling so wide with his teeth brightly shining, his dimples showing deeply. He's holding a bouquet of roses, red roses, he knows that I loved them a lot. He's holding a sign on his other hand saying,

"Would you go to the prom with me?"

I don't really understand what's going on but I know I don't have to think about it, not now. I walked closer and I nodded giving him a warm and sweet smile, he gave me the roses and he dropped the sign. I put the roses on the table then I ran to him and gave him a the tightest and warmest hug I've ever given to anyone.

"Is that a yes?" He teased me and he lift me up from my feet to his grip. He holds me in his arms and I nodded once again, now with a kiss I planted on his cheek. That was really unexpected for me to do.

"Yes Harry." I answered him. He crashed his lips onto mine and he pulled away then smile. He was unsure about something and I'm sure he's gonna ask me something.

"Do you want it?" That was the problem, I giggled and I nodded. He never asked me about a kiss before, he was always so sure that I want it too and he's always right.

He kissed my lips, now it was more passionate and loving than before. Maybe it's just me but I felt his tongue going inside me and somehow I feel like it was something that he never done before. He has done it, but not like this. This time it was more wild and intense but I keep my imagination to myself. He's dropping me down, so that I could stand up properly, not breaking the kiss away. Our kiss never left me breathless, sure I can't properly breathe but I can catch my breath.

"I love you." I mumbled, quickly wanting him to feel me again. He smiled and he continue it again.

I might be hungry but I'm really not. Do you know how it feels like, to be away from your loved-ones for so long that you feel like you're gonna lose him again, even when he stay, he's there with you. But you have this feeling whee you're scared, something might happen to them when you're peacefully sleeping,

And that is what I'm feeling now. Not just now, but forever. Maybe, just maybe. He's been away for too long that I'm just afraid something bad is always chasing us and keeping us in danger, and that was just my imagination.

"Taylor... I never meant to hurt you like this, and you know that." Pulling away gently, he immediately said that and tears starts to fall. It was unplanned but it did and I can't stop it from dropping down.

"It's in the past Harry. Stop bringing it to the future, I don't like that." He nods and he hugged me in his embrace, I cried on his chest, he was too tall for me to reach his shoulder.

"I'm sorry baby." Baby, the way he said that 4 letter words is so special to me. I shouldn't have felt this way but I did and I can't stop it.

Maybe it was the area, the feels, and the situation we are in right now but it's not wrong to feel special right? Maybe it was wrong to feel oddly special because he said me by "baby" but I can't help it.

Am I wrong?

"Why? Why are you like this?" He looked at me when i finished my sentence. His eyes are full with regrets yet I don't know why I saw it by that.

"I'm not trying to hurt you even more Tay, I'm so sorry." He pulled me even closer and now, I can feel his chest rising. It was a weird thing to feel but I feel calmer like this.

Harry POV

I'm hurting her again.

Because of my selfishness and that was fucking raw to hear her cry and questioned me.

Am I bad for her?

"You're not hurting me, Harry I'm just confused." She smiled weakly and she buried her face on my chest. I put my hand on her back and rubbed it in circles. "Would it kill you? If I say i love you but you have to wait?" She asked, still sobbing beautifully and peacefully.

"I'll wait. It hurts, sure but I'll wait for you." I smiled and she pulled away, softly. She gave me a smile and she wiped away her tears.

It's just like before. A confusing yet loving relationship and the important part is that, we love each other and that what matters.

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Author's Note :

Trying to write on computer and it was hard at first but then i get used to it. I'll try to update more often for ya! Sorry for last week, it was the most exhausting week I've ever experienced. Not because of camp, because camp was actually really fun and I enjoyed it!

Last week just sucked. It was basically sad. Things happened but really, I don't want to put it here, on wattpad cause there's no need to be sad here! :)

Thanks for everything loves!