The Cabin •Jc Caylen•

29. "The reunion: Part. 2"

She went on a rant about my horrible life and how I let everyone walk all over me and how stupid I am for not going to college. I looked at her as Kian sat me back in my seat. All I wanted to do was get out of here, I don't want to be here because it's not healthy for me.

"Listen the only reason I came to this dumb reunion was because of Kian, Kian and I are friends and friends don't have sex with each other, how about you write that down in your notepad?" She brought up irrelevant topics such as my college life so why shouldn't I?

"I-"

"I wasn't finished Cristina" I snapped as I put my hand up to make her shut up, "Kian has been there for me since the begging, he acted more of a best friends and you two ever did. A guy I only met a few weeks ago already earned something you two will never have, my respect." I said I looked over to him, now back to Cristina "and must I remind you the last time you had sex with one of your 'friends' you ended up with a baby nine months later?" I said as I let out a small smirk.

"Bailey stop" Alice started as she looked at me with pleading eyes.

"I trusted you" I sighed as I looked at her, "you never chose sides and I trusted you with my life, what did I do? What did I do to make you hate me so much that you had to hurt me?" I asked as my eyes began to tear up.

"My child should not be involved in this issue so leave her out of it" Cristy growled as she looked At me with so much anger in her eyes.

"Do not remember everything I did for you when you got pregnant? Your parents kicked you out Cristina, they kicked you out like a dog, who opened up their home? You were absolutely broke! I snuck out in the middle of the night to go get whatever you were craving, you don't even know how much trouble I could of gotten into if I got caught! I-I.. I was there for you! Even after she was born I bought her food, toys, clothes, pampers, I gave her the love that her father walked away from! I was there for you and her! Why would you hurt me so bad!" I yelled as I looked away once in a while to avoid any tears, "it didn't cross your mind to ever ask any of the guys you were sleeping with to buy her the things she needed. While you went around spreading your legs I stayed with her and gave her all the love she needed. Till this day I love her and spent as much time as I can with her!" I could feel my eyes swelling up with tears again, "is she your daughter or mine?"

I held in my breath to keep myself from crying but that uncomfortable knot formed in my throat.

"Bailey you had a choice, you chose to help her you didn't have to but you did so that's on you, you had a choice to get engaged it wasn't your mom's but yours, you had a choice to go to college but you didn't go so everything is on you don't take it out on Cristy" Alice spoke.

I let out a sigh and a sad smile, "the choice I made for Cristy was to help my best friend when she was in need, call me stupid but I know I did the right thing helping her while she carried a child. About my engagement, you're right I had a choice, and I chose to follow my responsibilities"

She looked away from me in shame, she should be ashamed, I have done nothing to her.

"You two seem to bring college up a lot you probably think I'm stupid, don't you?" I let out a sarcastic laugh.

"You don't have to explain yourself" Kian said as he grabbed my hand.

"No they have to know how smart I am" I said as I looked back at them, "you two never even asked me what I wanted to do for the rest of my life? You guys never asked me what universities I applied to"

"You applied to universities?" Cristy asked a bit surprised.

"Yes I did actually. You two knew all along high school that I wouldn't go to a college or university, but I did. I thought I was going to go and I was beyond happy. The hardest part was helping you two write essays and stress out wether you were going to get in or not. No im wrong the hardest part was getting back my letters saying I got in and then my mother crushing my dreams saying I coudnt go back to school, I had to hide those letters so mother wouldn't find them" I said as I held onto Kian's hand tightly, "you guys got accepted into what? Princeton? Yale? That's pretty good"

"Also Berkeley" Alice commented.

"Just know that I mean to say this in the most cocky way I possibly can because I'm tired of everyone treating me like I'm some stupid girl, but keep in mind that even though we're a year apart I got bumped a grade up for being so dam smart" I said as I looked at both of them, "Princeton, Yale and Berkeley are amazing schools and I'm happy that you girls got into all those schools but I never told you what school I got into, did I?" I asked as I pretended to think.

"Only because you were bumped up a grade it doesn't mean you're smarter than everyone" Alice said as she rolled her eyes.

"Oh I never said that, but you and I both know I'm way smarter than you" I smiled.

"How would you know that?" She asked as he furrowed her eyebrows. I knew she was getting angry because she always furrows her eyebrows when she's mad.

"Because I got accepted into Harvard" I said almost letting out a laugh, "not just Harvard, I also got into Stanford" I smirked, "wait I'm missing one" I said as I scratched my chin as sarcasm, "oh right, Massachusetts institute of technology, one of the top engineer schools in the world, don't believe me? I'll show when we get back home, I still have the letters begging me to go to their school. The reason I didn't apply to Yale of Princeton and whatever was because I know it was too easy for me to get in, I needed to be challenged. While you were working your butt off to at least get into Berkeley, I got into Harvard with the snap of my fingers and then Stanford and then Massachusetts" I don't care if I sound cocky, I deserve to show off after all my work.

"You said you got into a few minor colleges you never mentioned Stanford or Harvard" Jc said surprised.

"I could of been a brilliant engineer, pulling awards from left to right, making millions, building a future for myself. But maybe you're right I let people walk all over me including you two, don't think I forgot when you two told me I coudnt make it and that I probably wouldn't even graduate high school but.. I'm brilliant, I'm crazy smart" I said quietly.

They didn't say a word they simply looked down at their feet. I don't know if it was just me but they looked a bit shocked and sad.

"We covered Cristina and we covered Alice. We also covered my engagement and my school issues, anything else?" I asked a bit angrily. My time was being wasted right now, with silly talks like this.

I was about to leave but someone spoke up, a voice I wasn't expecting to speak for the rest of the session.

"Me" Jc's soft voice spoke up, "you didn't cover me, what do you think about me?" He said a bit louder as he turned around to look at me since I was almost at the door of the cabin.

I thought for a few seconds wether to actually answer him or not but you know what? He was willing to sit down and hear me talk about myself so he deserves feed back, "I'm mostly disappointed. I-i.. I don't know if you slept with Cristy to get back at me or because you actually liked her but even when I'm drunk I know my boundaries. I didn't have sex with Kian, I didn't even kiss him. I know I'm engaged to a really nice guy that probably actually likes me and I feel horrible for not even caring about him.. you knew how I felt about you and you knew that I was crazy about you but you went on to hurt me anyway" I said as I slowly rubbed my eyes, "but I forgive you, no matter what you do I'll always forgive you, always Jc"

I turned around and began walking into the house. Once I was inside I closed the door and began breathing heavily, I ran to my room and sat on my bed while breathing heavily, tears began rushing down my face. Tears of anger and sadness and maybe even happiness? I just wanted someone to hold me.

Not Cristy or Alice, not even Kian. I wanted Jc. I want him with so much desire. I miss his laugh, his jokes, his scent. I miss everything about him.