The Cabin •Jc Caylen•

46. "The One"

After hours of sobering up I decided to take my pill and in an hour I was feeling guilty and all my anger was gone. It was 11pm and nobody dared bother me the whole day. I couldn't sleep and all I wanted was a beer or something that burns my throat. I knew I couldn't drink again because it would really make me look like I'm addicted to alcohol, which I'm not because I've only gotten drunk twice.

I slowly opened my door and as I began walking out I tripped over something and face planted the floor. That's the second time today! What is wrong with me? I lifted up my face as I let out a load groan. I rubbed my forehead and then my nose.

"Holy shit are you okay?" Jc asked as he helped me up by grabbing me by my waist.

I nodded my head, "yeah I'm fine, it didn't really hurt" I chuckled.

I noticed his eyes were a bit droopy.

"Were you sleeping outside my room?" I asked a bit surprise.

He looked down at the floor and then back at me before shrugging his shoulders. I could clearly see the sorrow in his eyes and how much he regretted all this.

I embraced him in a hug and kissed his cheek. He hugged me back tightly and caressed my back.

"I'm sorry" I said as I hid my face in his chest, "I over reacted"

"I'm sorry too, I should have fucking deleted all those pictures once you came into my life" he said as he looked down at me.

"Let's get some sleep?" I asked as I looked up at him.

He nodded his head as we both walked into the door, closing the door behind us.

"Jc can we leave this behind us? Now I know that she's in your past and I shouldn't have overreacted" I said as I slipped off my shoes.

"Stop apologizing, I would of over reacted if that was you with another guy" he said as he slipped off his shoes and took off his shirt.

I spend the whole day in my pajamas so I didn't have to change. I got in bed and made space for Jc. Once he got in, he cuddled next to me.

He embraced me in his arms and I snuggled into his chest.

"You changed so much" he said as he kissed my cheek.

"How?" I asked a I looked up at him.

"Since the first time I met you, you were so insecure and controlled by many people. Now you're basically like fuck everyone" he chuckled, "I remember that one time I told you I might steal you from Tyler, and would you look at that, I actually did"

"I mean after you begging, of course I would finally give in"

We both began laughing and he began kissing me all over my face. I let out a few laughs and kissed him back as much as I could.

"Can I ask you something?"

I nodded my head and looked at him as I put my leg over his hip.

"The time Tyler came by and we got in that huge fight he said something about Alice. He called her a junkie, what was that about?"

"You caught that huh?" I chuckled, "I mean it happened a while ago. We were in high school" I said as I laid my head against his chest and looked at the wall, "it was before I was bumped up a grade.. and I was a freshman and they were sophomores, Alice had a history of drugs you can say. She started using drugs when she was maybe in sixth grade. One day we were in class when she got a few pills from a local dealer and after she took them, she had a horrible reaction and she had a seizure. After she left to the hospital the office kept her backpack because they found bottles of Xanax, three small bags of cocaine, and.. and heroin. She was suspended because her mother somehow managed to convince the principal to let her stay, and since she's a lawyer it wasn't so hard to win the case in court. She went to rehab for a couple of months and once she came out she was.. different. Since Tyler went to the same school, he knew about all this"

"Holy shit, I'm sorry I asked" he said as he held me tighter.

"You want to know the worst part?" I asked as I gripped his arm and held him like I was scared.

"What baby?" He asked. He noticed I was shaking a bit because he pulled the covers up to my neck and held me tighter while stroking my hair with one hand.

"When she had that seizure, I stood there and watched, I was frozen. I was so scared that I just watched instead of helping her. It wasn't until another student passed by and began yelling for help"

"It wasn't your fault, you got scared and froze-"

"She could have died" I mumbled as I closed my eyes shut.

"But she didn't, she's perfectly fine. She's making too much noice though" he chuckled.

I let out a small laugh and traced my finger around Jc's collar bone.

"I did this?" I asked as I pointed out a few hickeys he nodded his head and I closed my eyes in embarrassment, "what am I? Twelve?"

He let out a small laugh, "I think they're pretty hot" he said as he kissed my forehead.

I kept tracing my finger around his chest as it send chills all through out his arms.

"Can I ask you something else?"

"Go ahead" I smiled.

He cleared his throat before speaking again, "that night, when you had that panic attack. What happened? I remember you woke up and it took a while to calm you down"

My breath hitched in my throat, "I really don't want to talk about it"

"You know you can tell me anything I won't judge you" he said as he stroked my arm.

"I know it's just that I don't really find it necessary to share"

"Okay I won't pressure you" he said as he reached over and turned off the lamp.

"Goodnight bails" he said as he kissed my cheek.

"Goodnight" I repeated as I turned around and wrapped his arm around my waist.

This confirms it all, I think Jc is the one. I know it sounds cheesy and dumb but Cristy and Alice both told me that over my life I might have a lot of guys that I'll love but they'll only be one that I can say is 'the one'. And I think this is it, I think Jc is the one.