The Cabin •Jc Caylen•

89. "3:00AM"

I went to sleep crying quietly and I didn't stop crying until three in the morning. I was balling my eyes out and sobbing into my pillow. It got to the point where I almost became paralyzed like before.

That was the scariest moment of my life. I was completely paralyzed and had my face pressed down on my own tears and drool, as the walls closed in on me, crushing me.

I took in deep breaths as I wiped away my tears. I needed to talk to someone I trust with all my heart and I know wont ever betray me. I grabbed my phone and called his number.

"Hey, how are you?" Kian's soft voice spoke into the phone. It's obvious I woke him but I just needed to talk to him.

"H-hi Kian" I cried into the phone.

"What's wrong? Why are crying?" He questioned into the phone.

"Because I don't want to get married" I said as I chocked out a few tears.

He let out a small breath, "you don't have to Bailey. Listen I'm going to be at the airport in an hour I was just resting for a little bit and I'll be there in a few hours, when I get there I'll be with you to tell your parents about all this" he said as calm as possible.

"Kian I tried telling my mother but she slapped me" I sniffled, "Tyler's mother called me fat, I may have gained a few pounds but I don't want hear it out loud, I'm getting married at eighteen years old and my mother slapped me so hard I could still feel it, my life is absolutely fu- my life is ruined" I explained.

"You can stop the wedding, I'll be there with you" he said as I heard a bit of shuffling.

"I'm going to talk to my father about it tomorrow, I'll see what happens" I said as I pulled the coveres over my head.

"For now just calm down, I don't want what happened to you about Noel happen again" he said.

"Kian I miss him, I know I'm pathetic but I miss his affection" I cried, "and it just hurts because everything was just an act, all the words, all the touches, the feeling felt so real but it wasn't" I sobbed.

He let out a sigh, "I know Bailey, I know you're hurting" he said, "he's a fucked up person for doing that shit to you, and I'm glad you found out what he was doing behind your back because now you know the kind of person he is" Kian said in a soothing voice.

I wiped my eyes, "I know" I mumbled, "he might not have loved me like I loved him but he did change me, he taught me things, and I grew as a person" I said quietly as I chocked back more tears, "it just hurts so much, I can't even explain. I would take physical pain over this" I said, "I feel empty inside like there's nothing keeping me moving at this point. It's just sad... how someone I grew to love so much turned into someone I completely hated, believe me it's easier and faster to hate someone than to love them. Every moment every laugh just fades away in the past as the days go by, every laugh, every kiss, every smile, every touch is simply forgotten and replaced with the lies, broken promises, cries and pain. I hate him, there's no doubt, but I would really love just one second of that feeling I used to feel around him, just one more time. Sad isn't it?"

He let out a small shaky breath, "yes" he said quietly, "you don't have to go through this alone, I'll be there soon. I'll stand by your side as you tell your parents about stopping the wedding" he started, "listen, I know it's scary but together we can do anything. They might kick you out like you said but I can help you out, you can go back to school like you wanted. I'll pay for it all, you can get an apartment, that'll help you get back on your feet"

"That sounds like a fairy tail with a happy ending, but you know I don't ever get one of those" I said, "I'm going to talk to my father. I don't want to go through this" I said as I wiped my eyes.

"Okay do that" he said, "just hold on, I'll be there in a matter of hours" he assured.

"Okay Kian, I'll see you then. I love you" I said.

"I love you too Bails" he said.

I hanged up the phone and put it aside. It's really late and I can't go back to sleep.

I can do this. I can do this. I will do this.