The Cabin •Jc Caylen•

47. "My confessions"

I think I suffer from a sleeping disorder because I keep waking up in the middle of the night for no apparent reason. At least I didn't wake up alone in a big bed instead I woke up to a sleeping Jc.

This time I'm not angry about waking up because now I can look at Jc peacefully asleep. Is that creepy? I can't even tell at this point because everything he does has me head over heels for him.

A small strip of moon light crept into the room and onto Jc's face making it more appealing. I smiled as I pulled his messy curls back and rubbed my fingers on his barley forming beard.

"Jc, are you awake?" I whispered. I know it was silly to ask but I thought he was paying attention while pretending to be asleep.

He let out a few snores and I couldn't help but smile. I caressed his chubby cheek and then his cute sharp nose.

"I just wanted to tell you that I think you're the most beautiful thing I've ever seen in my whole life. I know most women won't call their man 'beautiful' because that word is more towards the feminine side but I disagree I think your beautiful" I said as I cuddled closer to him, "I'm fascinated, sometimes I want to ask you, what's your favorite thing about me because I can't believe someone like you would like someone like me. Every time I'm about to ask you I stop myself because I fear you won't have an answer. I think you have the most gorgeous pair of eyes I've ever seen. Yeah, They're brown but someone you pull them off perfectly, they glow without needing sun and it makes me want to stare into them all day. You're curly hair is so adorable I love it. I love how even when it's messy you somehow manage go pull it off. I love how it gets in the way when I kiss you. That cute little nose is so adorable, I know you don't really like it when I kiss it but I do it anyways" I smiled as I leaned over and kissed his nose, "I have to say Jc my favorite thing about you is your skin, I know weird. But just the way it touches mine, that connection we have with one touch. Your skin so soft and tan, when they touch is fills me with joy"

I'm crazy about this boy, absolutely crazy.

"And you're the funniest person I've ever met, I've never seen someone who smiles as much as you do. I honestly don't know what I would do without you, I know it's hard to believe but seriously, if I haven't have met you I wonder how my life would be. You changed everything for me I can't imagine a world where you wouldn't be with me" I said as I began stroking his hair.

"Cristy and Alice both told me that I would have that one guy, just one, who would change my life forever, that one guy who I would be beyond in love with, that one guy who I would sacrifice everything for him. At first I didn't believe them I thought everything they said was a joke, but then.. I met you" I paused for a few seconds before continuing, "what I'm trying to say is that you're my one, I love you with all my heart, there's so much love for you that it hurts and I don't know how else to show it to you. If someone told me at the begging of the summer that you would make me fall deeply in love with you I would laugh so hard but now I'm like 'I'll call off the wedding and go with you wherever you want to go' because I want to be with you and only you" I stoped breathless as I confessed my love to a sleeping man, "I remember I once asked you what it felt like to love someone and now I can answer that for myself, now I know what love is, don't ask me how I know I'm in love, I just am. This feeling is so much stronger than a regular crush it's hard to contain it inside of me"

He began to shift a little in his sleep so I lowered my voice.

"I guess I'm too scared to confess how I feel when you're awake that's why I do it while you're sleeping. I think I'm blinded by you and this so-called love thing" I combed his hair to the side with my hand, "you have the biggest heart I've ever seen someone have and I know you won't hurt me because that's not who you are. I think now I'm just going on a rant. Anyways good night."

My eyes began to feel heavier the more I talked so I began to cuddle up next to him.

Before falling asleep I managed to say a few last words, "oh and Jc? I love you"