Matthew Daddario imagines

loving you sucks

''How could you do this Alec?''you said with tears streaming down your cheeks.That was it.He was getting married with someone that is not you.You just couldn't understand.He proposed to someone else,a complete stranger,Lydia Branwell,when he had a perfect relationship with you.

''It's nothing but alliance.''he said trying to explain.''Y/N,you have to understand.''He tried to hold your hand but you pushed him harshly.

''I don't have to understand anything!''you yelled hitting him over and over again.''Weren't you happy Alexander?Weren't you?No one was forcing you to be with me!''

''Babe-''

''You can't call someone 'babe' when you're engaged!''you said sitting on your bed.''I can't believe you.''You covered your face with your hands

''I'm the happiest and the best with you but i gotta do this form my family.I gotta clean the mess,my parents made.You're parents were a part of The Circle too,would'nt you do what i did?''

''Of course i wouldn't Alec!''You gave him a deathstare.''I wouldn't do it when i was in love with you.What you did is a humiliation to me!Lightwood name is known for being loyal.This is not being loyal.You are betraying the name you're trying to save!''You said trying to get up,but he held your wrist.

''Please don't leave.''His voice was desperate.

''Are you really expecting me to watch the man i love,marrying to another woman?''

''Y/N,please.''You realized the tears on his face.

''You know what?''you said looking at him.''Loving you sucks.''You got up and walked away from his room and went to your room and stayed up all night crying.

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You didn't get out of bed for 3 days.

It was 3 days of crying,cursing and hating yourself.3 days of Alec coming to your door to beg.

When you decided to get out of bed and announce the desicion you finally made after thinking for 3 days.

You got out of your room and went to the kitchen to see everyone sitting around the dining table.When everyone looked at you,they looked like they were shocked.Especially Alec.He tried to stand up but Izzy stopped him and stood up instead of him.She came to you and touched your shoulder.

''Hey!Do you want to go shopping together.I can get my purse and we can-''

''Oh,okay.''you said with a forced smile than you announced your decision.''I decided to go back to Idris,to my parents house.''