Matthew Daddario imagines

Why Me?

by -shadowhuntersimagines

"Come on Jace, leave your sister alone." Alec said as Jace was showing off about his last missions.
"I'm just saying, I've killed more than twenty demons in my last three missions. How many demons did you kill in the last three months, (Y/N)?" Jace asked with a smirk.
"Jace, shut up." Alec said half friendly.
(Y/N) rolled her eyes and went to her room. She sat down on her bed and burried her face in her hands.

Jace was (Y/N)'s twin brother. He was confident and cocky. Jace was everything (Y/N) wasn't. She was shy, quiet and self-conscious. (Y/N) was so different from her brother, sometimes she was convinced she had been adopted, or put in the wrong family, maybe even in the wrong world.
(Y/N) loved being a shadowhunter but she couldn't help comparing herself to her brother and everybody knew that Jace was one of the best shadowhunters of his generation. Everytime Jace was bragging about his missions, (Y/N) felt like maybe she didn't belong to this world, it would explain why she wasn't as good as her brother.
(Y/N) also loved her brother, but Jace was the opposite of her and it was difficult to have a personal conversation with him. They weren't very close but they would always be willing to die for one another. They were a family, after all.

(Y/N) lifted her head up when she heard someone walk into her room. It was Alec. (Y/N) felt her cheeks blush so she burried her face back in her hands. (Y/N) had a crush on Alec but she was way too shy and scared of rejection to talk to anyone about it, especially not Alec.
"Are you okay?" Alec asked.
"Don't do that again." (Y/N) said. Alec frowned. "You don't need to defend me when my brother makes fun of me. I can handle it on my own." (Y/N) didn't mean to be rude but somehow it all came out pretty agressive. (Y/N) shook her head and sighed.
"I didn't mean to upset you. I'm sorry." Alec declared.
"No, I'm sorry. None of this is your fault. I shouldn't take it all out on you. Thanks for caring about me, though." (Y/N) smiled a little and looked down.
"Of course I do. I will always care about you, (Y/N)." Alec said very seriously.
(Y/N) looked at him. Alec was about to add something when Maryse Lightwood walked into the room. (Y/N) wished people would knock before entering her bedroom.
"Ah! There you are. Something came up. You two need to get ready for a new mission." Alec's mother ordered. (Y/N) held back a complaint. She had just came back from another mission and she had been training all day. She was exhausted.
"What about Jace and Izzy?" (Y/N) asked.
"They already left. They went to see Meliorn to get some information. Why? Is there a problem?" Maryse asked with her usual cold attitude.
"No. I was just wondering." (Y/N) lied.
She knew that if she told Maryse that she was too exhausted for a new mission, she would be seen as weak. And (Y/N) didn't want to be called a coward in front of Alec.

As (Y/N) and Alec got to their location, Alec kept looking at (Y/N) with concern.
"Are you sure you're okay?" Alec asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine." (Y/N) lied.
She was tired, she couldn't remember the last time she slept for more than two hours in a row. And the few injuries she got from the last mission were still healing and sore, and everything hurt everytime she was taking a new step.
"(Y/N), I hope you know that not being as good as your brother doesn't make you less of a good shadowhunter." Alec declared. "You know that everything is a competition for Jace, but it's not about the number of demons you kill during a mission, it's about-"
"Watch out!" (Y/N) shouted as she tightened her grip around her seraph blade.
A demon came running on Alec and (Y/N) pushed Alec aside to take care of the creature. She pushed her weapon through the demon's body and it disappeared into a cloud of dust almost immediatly.
"See, you're a great shadowhunter. You just saved my life." Alec said with a little smile on his face.
"Yeah, well, tell that to Jace." (Y/N) chuckled.
"(Y/N), I need to tell you something, I -" Alec didn't have time to finish.
(Y/N) screamed and collapsed on the ground. It took Alec a few seconds to see the demon that injured (Y/N). He killed it without a struggle and rushed to (Y/N)'s side.
"Damn it!" (Y/N) shouted as she held onto her shoulder, in pain.
Alec reached for his stele and drew the healing rune on (Y/N)'s injury. She winced and gritted her teeth.
"There. The pain should fade away in a minute." Alec said. "Are you okay?" He added.
"I'm fine." Alec offered (Y/N) his hand, she grabbed it and lifted herself from the ground.

After the mission, Alec and (Y/N) went back to the Institute. (Y/N) was still exhausted and a little bit in pain, but when she got to her room, Alec joined her there a few minutes later.
"Oh, sorry! I didn't know you were about to go to bed." Alec said as he saw (Y/N) in her night clothes -which were nothing more than a oversized t-shirt.
(Y/N) blushed when she caught Alec staring at her bear legs.
"It's okay. What's going on?" (Y/N) asked.
Alec walked closer to (Y/N) and she almost forgot how to breathe.
"I wanted to apologize." Alec declared.
"What for?" (Y/N) frowned.
"Well, if I didn't talk to you during the mission, you wouldn't have been distracted and you wouldn't have gotten hurt."
"Oh, no Alec, it wasn't your fault." Alec looked down.
(Y/N) reached for Alec's chin and lifted it up with her soft hand. "I mean it, Alec. It wasn't your fault."
Alec stared at (Y/N) and got lost in her eyes for a minute.

Suddenly, Alec put his hands on each side of (Y/N)'s face and kissed her. (Y/N) was surprised and shocked but she kissed him back. Alec let go of (Y/N), she looked at him with wide eyes.
"Why did you do that?" (Y/N) asked, almost blaming Alec.
"I like you, (Y/N)." Alec declared. He was feeling anxious and scared that (Y/N) would reject him. Alec knew how hard it was for (Y/N) to let people in.
"Is this some kind of joke? Did Jace dare you to kiss me?" (Y/N) felt angry. She knew her brother would be able to do something like that for his own entertainment. He always told (Y/N) that she was too hung-up with boys.
"What? No!" Alec said, confused. "Your brother doesn't even know that I have feelings for you."
"Do you really? Because I swear to God Alec, if this is a joke, it's really not funny and cruel." (Y/N) didn't know what to think anymore.
On one hand, (Y/N) didn't think that Alec was mean enough to play with her feelings. But on the other hand, she couldn't believe that Alec could really like her.
"(Y/N), this isn't a joke, OK? I would never do anything to hurt you." Alec took (Y/N)'s hands in his.
"But why me?" (Y/N) asked quietly.
"What do you mean by that?" Alec frowned.
"Well, there are lots of prettier girls than me in this world. I'm not exactly the best shadowhunter, I am clumsy, shy and-"
"Hey, stop. You're the prettiest girl I've ever met and you're a great shadowhunter. I mean how many times did you save my life?" Alec chuckled.
"Well, how many times did you save mine?" (Y/N) mumbled.
"(Y/N), listen. I like everything about you, I really do." Alec said. He sounded very sincere. "Now, I understand if you don't feel the same way." Hardly had he finished his sentence that (Y/N) pressed her lips against his. The two of them kissed passionately for a while.
"It was about time."
(Y/N) and Alec turned to face the door and saw Izzy leaned on the door frame.
"Can't you people just knock?" (Y/N) declared half laughing and half embarrassed.