Matthew Daddario imagines

Hidden Truth

I didn't mean for it to happen but it did, and the first thing that I did was go to my best friend Alec. I didn't know what to do, but I knew one thing: I couldn't tell the father of the baby. My ex-boyfriend wasn't a good person; he was cruel and believed that he was better than anyone. Our relationship didn't last long, but it lasted long enough for the two of us to fall into bed together. It only took once for you to end up pregnant. Honestly, I thought that I was smarter than this. I knew to use protection, and I thought that I did, but nothing was ever one hundred percent when it came to preventing pregnancy.

Alec took it better than I thought he would. He was understanding, just like I knew he would be. He said that he would be there for me no matter what I decided to do. I knew then that I would have the baby and that I didn't have it in me to terminate the pregnancy. But it wasn't going to be easy. I knew that. I knew how the Clave felt about unwed mothers. I knew that I would have to hide this. I knew that Alec would help me: he might be the head of the New York institute but he was my friend, and I knew he would never do anything that might hurt the people that he cared about.

When I told him that I knew what I was going to do and that I was going to keep the baby, the first thing that we did was go to Magnus. We knew that we would need his help if we were going to hide the fact that I was pregnant and to keep me and the baby healthy. I wasn't that far along from what Magnus could tell. He gave me something to take each morning and Alec was going to make it so that I was no longer in the field. That was going to take some getting used to, but I knew that I had to do it. I wasn't going to be putting my life or the life of my child on the line.

It wasn't easy keeping this secret, and I found myself pulling away from the people that I called friends: Jace, Clary, Izzy, Simon and even Alec. I didn't want to make things more difficult than I had already made it. Before this, I liked to think that there weren't any secrets in our group of friends. I didn't want to keep asking Alec to tell my lies, so it was just better to keep away from him. The only ones that I really talked to were Magnus and the Mundane doctors that I had started to go to. It got to the point that if I wasn't working, I was over at Magnus's place sleeping there and hiding the best that I could. But I knew that it couldn't last.

It had been a long day. I had to work in the Ops Center this morning and the morning sickness was kicking my butt; then after I was done I had to go to the doctors. So by the time that I got to Magnus's loft all I wanted to do was take a hot shower and fall asleep in the room Magnus gave me. But when I opened the door I found everyone standing there in the living room of the loft and they all turned and looked at me. Part of me wanted to run, to slam the door and get as far away from them as possible, but I knew that it was coming and knew that my time of running was over.

"Y/N?" Izzy was the first to speak after I closed the door. Out of everyone, I might be hurting her the most. Alec might be my best friend, but Izzy was a sister to me and I had never really kept anything from her before. I hated every moment I kept this from her. I hated keeping it from all of them. I walked over and took a seat on the couch and waited for them to sit with me. I didn't know how to start this conversation, so I just looked down at my hands, which was something I usually wouldn't do.

"This isn't like you Y/N. What is going on?" Izzy wondered when she took a seat next to me.

"Things are different now." I looked over at her. I could feel the tears gather in my eyes, and I couldn't help but curse the hormones that were running through my body. I could see the shock on her face as she looked at me. Crying was not something that I did. I couldn't remember the last time I cried.

"Oh, Y/N." Izzy sighed as she went to hug me, but I pulled away from her. Just because she couldn't see the baby bump at the moment didn't mean that it wasn't there and I didn't want her to find out from hugging me. I wanted to tell them first. I stood from the couch fast and made my way over to the window and looked over the city that I had spent my life trying to keep safe from the demons.

"I have to tell you all something." I started turning back to them. "I'm pregnant." I could tell when the exact moment of what I said hit them and what it meant. They all got the same look; they're shocked and I couldn't blame them one bit. I thought that it was the same look that I had when I first found out.

"You're...." Jace began as he looked down at my stomach. I removed the glamour that I had been putting on every morning and taking off every night. With it gone, the baby bump did become more noticeable. I was almost five months. Honestly, I couldn't believe that I was able to keep it a secret this long. None of them had seen it, not even Magnus and I was just about living with him.

"You really are," Jace whispered to me from across the room. All of us knew the implications that came with this confession.

"I didn't know what to do when I found out. You remember who I was with and I could not let him find out about the little boy," I whispered as I placed my hand on my bump. "I knew what the Clave thinks about unwed mother I didn't want to have to put you all in a position that would get you in trouble if somehow the Clave found out."

"So you hid from us. We're your friends Y/N. We would have helped you," Izzy said to me, a look of hurt on her face.

"I know that you would have Izzy but this is something that I had to do on my own. I didn't want something to happen to you because of me."

"I don't care! We don't care!" Izzy exclaimed as she looked around the group. All of them nodded in agreement with what she was saying.

"I know that and I love you all so much but my life is a mess and it's not your mess to deal with. I'm sorry I didn't tell you, all of you, but I did what I thought was right. I told Alec but then I distanced myself. I'm sorry," I murmured. I could feel the tears running down my face. I hated these hormones. They made me feel crazy. The next thing I knew I was surrounded by a big group hug; I needed this. I missed this. I missed them: my family, my friends, everything. But it was going to be okay. It had to be.