Matthew Daddario imagines

her lost paratabi

I started to storm away feeling angry drilling in my veins. Alec's distance and angry had me on the edge in the beginning. He treated me like I'm worthless to him. I tried shaking it off and ignore the worst feeling in this place. I just couldn't anymore.

Before Izzy had pulled us together by locking us in a room over night. Our relationship was filled hatred and insults hiding true feelings. It never got this bad, Alec was too unpredictable at this point.

A bigger hand than mine gripped onto my right wrist. The grip tightened making me stop in my tracks. The hand that I knew was Alec's yanked me back. His hand had rough calluses along his soft skin from train too much.

His chocolate brown eyes stared into my blue feverish ones. His body frame was tense with anger again. "Where do you think your'e going?" He asked viciously with his now black eyes.

"Away from you!" I seethed through my teeth, I pulled my wrist from his grip and started to walk again. Sickling words that came from his mouth made me stop a few feet away from him.

"You don't understand, you've never had parabatai." His voice strict, because he didn't know how wrong he really was. The words echoed in my head throwing me back to the horrible memories.

I turned my head to look at his black eyes again, "I did, but I lost him." My voice wavered thinking about my parabatai. The other half to my soul, the other half of my heart, and the other half of my everything.

Those words were the last thing I said to him before running off. tears flowing down my cheeks and the sob bubbling up in my throat. He called for me with his voice totally different as if the angry was never there.

I around a few corners and made my way up stairs before I saw my room's door. Once I got into my room I locked it with my heart pounding as I slide down the heavy door.

It wasn't long before I was fully sobbing, feeling the black makeup make it's way down my face. The banging on my door made it's way to my body, "Carissa! I didn't know, open the door!" He sounded desperate, I didn't care and I didn't want to listen to him.

I stood up hearing him trying to open the door, I reached into my back pocket. Pulling out my steel and drawling the lock rune onto the door. Alec noticed right away as he stopped shaking the knob.

He sighed knowing he couldn't get though to me, right now I don't think I cold get through to me. I walked across the room and crawled onto my bed, dropping into a slight fetal position. Clutching the steel into my left hand, thinking about my former parabatai.

I remembered us training like it was yesterday morning. His hair a shade darker than Alec's, his blue eyes icier than mine. His frame was broad, but that never stopped him from pushing me to the limit.

I pictured us in the training room, staffs held with both hands. Left, right. The staffs met at each end with a clunk, hearts racing and muscles burning. I tried with most of me to over power him.

One little distraction and my staff flew across the room, eyes wide as he pulled me against him with my back against his chest. He held me there with his arm around my stomach and his staff against my chin.

I sighed angrily, as he breathed heavily into my ear. "Right he the blade would go into your stomach." His voice void as he dug his finger into my bare skin above my waist band.

I wacked the staff away and slipped from his grip fast. Kicking under his feet once he least expected my attack. He hit the floor hard, I straddled him before he could get up. I grabbed his staff before it rolled away, holding it to his chest.

I took one hand away and dug one figure into the left side of his chest. "..And right here the blade will plunge into your heart, Dakota." I said with an evil smirk.