Matthew Daddario imagines

Loving you Sucks Part 2

''What do you think you're doing.''You heard the voice of the eldest Lightwood while you were picking your stuff up from the training room to put in your suitcase.

''Do you think you have the authority to ask me that?''You said trying to be calm.It was obvious that he wasn't calm.

''You can't leave!''He held your wrist and made you look in his eyes.You looked at your wrist and he let it go.

''Yeah,Lightwood i can't leave but you can marry sastranger?Perfect.Excellent!''

''You know i didn't mean that.''

''I don't even know you anyomore Alec.''you said while you were starting to cry.''After being with you for a year,and a friendship that lasted for 6 years,i would never think that,i would look at you one day,and think that you were a complete stranger.''You tried to keep your voice straight but it was obviously cracking.

''Please don't say that.''Your words created tears in his eyes.''You know that i love you.More than anything.More than anyone.''

''Don't.''you said looking away,and avoiding eye contact."im leaving,and you have to keep your mouth shout about it.Whether you like it or not.''

''You know you have to say goodbye to him.''Izzy said rubbing your arm.

''I know that he's your brother but does he really deserve a goodbye?''

''He loves you.That's what i know.What he's doing is horrible but a goodbye won't hurt.''

''Alright.''

You knocked on the door of the room you spent nights in,amazing conversations,unforgettable moments.

''Come in!''Alec said.You got in the room with your suitcase.

''I'm leaving.''you said with a straight and ice cold voice.He stood up,walked to you.

''Now?''He raised an eyebrow.

''Yeah.''You prepared yourself to leave,you turned araound and you were ready to walk away.

''We can work this out.''he said holding your arms.''Don't give up on us.''

You turned to him fastly.''Do you think that here's something left of 'us'?You ruined everything!Everything!Why did you make me fall in love with you?Why did you daydreamed with me about our kids and house we would have together in the future?Why did you make me feel like i was special?I trusted you!And fucked me over.So congratulations.I hope you live the future we created for ourselves in our minds with Lydia.''

You turned around and walked away.That was it.The New York Institute Chapter of your life finished.

4 Months Later

You were lying on the couch,in your parents house that they've been letting you use in Idris.You were looking at the pictures of you and Alec.Knowing that he was going to marry today with someone that is not you.Just the thought was enough to make you sick .

4 months passed like hell.It felt like a lifetime without him.You were angry to him.You were sad about what he did to you.You hated him and yourself for what happened.But the thing was,you were still completely in love with him.

You left the photos on the coffee table when you heard the doorbell.You walked to the door,unlocked it and looked at the person that was standing.

You immediatly recognized the black hair,gorgeous eyes and the lips you missed the most.

Alexander Gideon Lightwood.

''Alec?''you said without trying to hide the shock in your voice.

''Hey.''He smiled when he saw you.

''What are you doing here?''you said with a confused face.''Why aren't you-''

''Getting married?I couldn't.''He got in to the house.''I couldn't say yes to her when the only thing i had on my mind was the way you smiled to me.''

''Alec-''You shaked your head as no.

''Listen.This was the worst mistake i've ever made in my life.So i walked away.''

''You walked away?''

''Just like that.I couldn't do it when i was in love with everything about you.Belive it or not,you're the only one i love.Even if you have the right to hate me''He held your hand,but this time you let him.

''You know that i can't.''

You tried to take your hand away but he tightened it.

''You're my first,my only,and hopefully my last.''He said getting closer to you.

''I'm not going to make crawl or i'm not going to be coy when i know you're my only home.''You said moving your face closer to him.''I forgive you.''

He smiled and pulled you into a soft then a passionate kiss.You realized you missed him more than anything.You missed his touch,his kiss,his voice,everything about him.

''I love you so much.''He whispered when you pulled away from the kiss for hugging.

''I love you too.''you said kissing his cheek.

He was there.

You were there.

Everything was perfect.