Matthew Daddario imagines

IM GOING TO KILL HIM PT2

After I confided in Jace he would not leave me alone.

"I'm gonna go take a shower". I wiped my eyes with the sleeve of my jumper and placed my weapons back on the rack.

"C-can I use your shower, erm mines broken". He stuttered, obviously trying to find an excuse so I didn't have to go into that room by myself.

I smiled at him showing my appreciation, "He's in Idris until the end of the week don't worry".

I heard the training room door open, I turned to see who it was and I immediately wish I hadn't. It was Alec. He saw me and hesitated to come in. I looked away, tears starting to rise.
"Hey Jace", I never realised how much I missed his voice.
I hadn't spoken to him for just over a week but it honestly felt like a lifetime.

Jace stuttered with his reply, obviously feeling like he was in the middle,
"H-hey Alec".

"What are you doing tonight? Magnus has invited me, you, Izzy, Simon and Clary to one of his parties". He raised his voice wanting me to hear him, wanting me to know that he still hadn't forgiven me. I mean I couldn't blame him.

Jace huffed, "Alec...don't blame Y/N-". I knew he was going to tell him and Alec was the last person I wanted to know about this.

I spun round to face them from the weapons rack, "JACE", I shouted, subtly shaking my head before Alec could turn to face me. Jace saw the desperation in my eyes from across the room., "Go". I told him, not wanting to look at Alec, "Have a nice time".

I walked out of the room with the fake smile still plastered onto my face.

I had been sat staring at the same spot for hours in my room, hair still dripping from the shower. There was a knock on the door, I flinched, "Who is it?". I asked wearily.

"It's Izzy". I opened the door to her and she skipped in wearing a very short sparkly dress.

"Why aren't you ready yet! We are leaving in 5 minutes!", She frowned. I was confused for a second when I finally realised she was talking about Magnus' party.

"I'm not invited", I said quietly, slumping back down on my bed.
Izzy looked confused, "What are you talking about? I was there when Magnus invited us, you were the first name he said actually".

"Alec said...it doesn't matter anyway, he doesn't want me there, he's not ready yet...and who can blame him. I don't want to make things worse Iz".

She sat next to me on my bed and put my hand in hers.

"None of this is your fault, you were forced into this, you need to stop blaming yourself".

There was a short silence in the room where I processed what she said and took it on board. This wasn't my fault, I was forced into this, I didn't ask for any of this and I certainly didn't want any of this.

"Now you can sit here feeling sorry for yourself or you can come out and have an amazing night with me. Forget about Alec, if he can't understand then thats his loss. Anyway, you'll always have the best Lightwood by your side". She said with a wink and a smile. I pulled her into a tight hug, I was truly blessed to have heron my life, she was more to me than just my parabati.

I was finally ready. Izzy had told the others to go on without her, she didn't want to tell them

I was coming because she knew Alec would back out and then all the others would and she didn't want that.

She kept Clary behind as she knew that I would want her there as well whilst Simon drove Alec and Jace to the party as they were already late.

I couldn't wear anything revealing or anything that showed skin, only Jace knew about my bruises and I didn't want anyone else knowing, it was my burden to bear not anyone else.