He pulls away. "Wait no. You're with Kian. This is wrong."
"I thought you'd say that."
"Well why wouldn't I. You'll obviously get over this and go back to Kian."
"That's the thing, I don't know if I want to go back to Kian."
"You have to."
"No I don't. With Kian I feel like everything's just constantly an argument. The only way we make up is someone changes something about them and tries to make it work just so it'll fall apart again."
"But that's what you do when you're in a relationship. You change for the other person."
"I know that, but I feel like I've changed so much I'm not even the same person I used to be. I've changed for people all my life anyways."
"What do you mean?"
"My dads a very judgmental person. I've changed everything about myself just so he'd approve of me. Half the time when I was living in Kentucky I felt like I didn't even know who I was."
"Well you're perfect the way you are now," he says with a smile.
"I thought you said we shouldn't kiss?"
"We aren't kissing."
"You make it kind of hard to do when you say things like that though."
"You're really ok with this choice?" He asks.
"Yeah." He leans down again and I kiss his soft lips. His finger makes small traces up and down my spine, never have I felt more alive and accepted.
When I get back to my room I feel amazing. Truthfully after I spent some time with Brian as more than friends I'm confident with the decision I made. With Kian everything was about change and improvement in our relationship, but with Brian he accepts me for who I am.
There still is that hint of guilt that lies in me though. It shouldn't be there. I mean it's not like I'm cheating on Kian, he broke up with me. There's no ring on my finger anymore.
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California Dream Part Two
FanfictionI don't care if we fight though, just being with you and having happy moments with you makes me forget about all that shit. That's how you know you've found that right person, even though you fight you still find plenty of happiness with them.
