↠Silent, But Deadly↞

↠BabySitting↞

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February 26th, 2017//Edited

03x04 Episode: "Killer Within" & 03x05: "Say the word"

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Chapter 55: ↠BabySitting↞

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"Wanna drive?"
My mind wired for quick second, as I was surprised to hear it. Or even think that through as a thought. But when he began to pull my bow off my shoulder and place it on his did I understand he was not kidding.

Sitting down onto the drivers front seat did I grip the handles before me. Waiting for him to sit on down, funny enough. I've rode a motorcycle before, how else would I have afforded a ride up into the mountains. Although...Mine might have been a bit bigger.

"Twist the-"
I went ahead and went for how I normally start my bikes, a smirk grew on my face as I went to look behind me. His chuckle was audible for a good moment until the ripping tear of the road underneath me was visible.

This bike was much easier to control than the other one, and I understand why he likes me to have a strong hold on my waist. I feel like he is going to fall off at any moment.

"Doin' good Bunny!"
He yelled, letting my laugh free into the wind as we zipped on past through everything else. Coming up to the prison we were greeted by a good portion of the group, I ran on in. Leaving my bow with Daryl as I tried to get myself into the Cell block to start mixing this formula.
But Maggie took it from there. So I went off to Glenn, watching this entire thing unfold.

"Is Rick back?"
"Haven't seen him since he left."
Whipping my face do I sit down at the farthest lunch table from the grip, sighing into my hands as what has happened so far in everything. Carl came on over to me, and although I wished to be alone...My hand found itself wrapping him in an embrace, he rested against me watching everything unfold.

Silence was golden, as I probably mentioned somewhere or sometime ago. And everyone must have bothered him enough asking him how he's doing, coming to me was a last resort, but in all efforts will it be the final one.

As the baby started to cry all eyes went towards the one who was holding her, but what shocked me even more. Was Daryl's magnetic pull that brought him over beside her.

"How's she doing? shShsh."
My eyes moved out for a moment about to help Maggie uncover what I found, the bottles were under everything. But when I heard the soft cries stop, I saw Daryl...Holding the baby as calmly as ever.

Beth came on over towards him and handed him the bottle, Carl left my side to watch Pookie feed her for the first time. As did everyone else, but my heart could not take another stab like this.

Resting my head against my arm did I watch in pure agony of what I've just done to him, wether he was trying to prove a point. Or make me feel this pain of not allowing him to have a kid, he has gotten me.

The crying stopped and she was quick to take the drink, her head resting on his large muscle mass in the center of his arm. No wonder she finds it as comfy as I do. He rocked his body back and forth, easy the milk so she wasn't getting too much at a time. His eyes locked onto me, his smile couldn't be any wider.

But then he looked on to everyone else, hiding our secret yet again. Maybe that is another reason? That he wont admit it to anyone, let alone himself.

"She got a name yet?"
He asked Carl, and I was shocked that we didn't hear about this just yet. I didn't even think of her having a name, not even asking Lori what her opinion was just broke my heart even more.

"Not yet. But I was thinking maybe...Sofia. Then there's Carol, too. Andrea. Amy. Jackie. Patricia. Or Lori...I don't know."
I sniffled softly into my shoulder as my tears just continued streaming down my face, I wouldn't sleep tonight. Or tomorrow. Or ever. It was wired even when I can't feel the pain anymore.

"Yeah..You like that? Huh? Little ass-kicker....that's a good name, right?"
The chuckles sounded across the room as Glenn and Maggie smiled to one another to see this breathing miracle, while Hershel had his eyes not on his children, not on the child. But to me.

"You like that huh? You like that sweetheart?"
I was robbing him of his right to be a father, because I couldn't put it passed me for a pregnancy. That is selfish, the most selfish thing I have ever heard of. The moment he passed the child off to someone else, I took my leave. Wanting so badly to go look for Rick, but I was stopped.

A rough hand just took to my bare shoulder in an effort for whatever sort of apology he could muster. But I shook my head continuing off to the cell, running up the steps. I've cried so much, and to think this happened all in the time span of a few days. We've lost T-Dog...We lost Carol and Lori. Who else will we lose.

"H...hey Blake. Hershel wants to talk to you."
My eyes looked on up to poor Glenn, seeing as how Daryl didn't want to risk coming up here and pushing me further away from the group. But coming on down did I see everyone still out in the lit area, Glenn pointed into the room below. The small glisten of light shown to see Hershel sitting on his bed, and I too joined him.

"Let me guess...Daryl asked you to check on me."
"That. And he brought to my attention that cut on you leg. If I don't clean and bandage it, it will get infected."
I nodded, not even bothering to cover myself, I just rolled my pants on down for him to see my thigh. The cut was deep and thick, and when he took the alcohol to it. I gritted my teeth harder than I could have thought.
"I wish I prepared you for the birth as well..."
"Nobody could have seen this coming. But you did good. The baby is healthy, and what Lori never understand was that she would have needed a C-section no matter what."

Another nod had me agree with what he said, I never knew that was a thing in the medical world. Even when he began to bandage me up, keeping a tight hold before completing it. As I was about to pull my pants up and go, he held onto my hands to stop me.

"We need to watch Rick...This-"
"That was Lori's dying wish...To have me watch over her family."
His eyes widened as he finally understood what has happened when no one was around, why Carl suddenly comes to me for comfort. Or why I am genially scared for Rick's health. We are in need of a leader.

"Tomorrow, if he is not back yet. We'll send a search party. I don't know."
Hershel's hand left his grasp to reveal a small box, coming from the looks of it. I knew exactly what it was...How much did Daryl tell him?
"He also said you needed these...You know you can talk to me too. You don't have to hide yourself like you did at the farm...Or after."
"I was a different person after the farm, but thank you."
Was the last thing I had said, before holding my pants on up and leaving his room to go back to mine. Everyone was still downstairs looking over the baby, and as much as I feel for the poor child.
She is in for a world load of hurt. This group is her family, in replacement to her mother. Getting to the top of the steps and to the room I'm sharing with him, do I see him just resting in the center. His hands behind his head for a moment before he scrambles upwards.

"You alright?"
He asks, and I nod. Putting down the pills beside him at the night stand before taking my side of the bed. The one near the corner, just a general preference. Which is good because he likes the end.

My back facing him did he not mind, and I might have actually considered taking a small nap before my shift if it wasn't for his constant move for him to hold me.
"We need to find Rick tomorrow."
I mumbled. Shifting my head into my shoulder before drifting off to sleep. But it was only for a moment, as the burning image of my mind and the quick scream that shouted in my ear as I felt Lori's death once more.

This is a haunted maze, we were sleeping in a dead man's cell. Eating a dead facilities food, and not to mention we lost a few more people along the way. Not just Lori. If I had just been on the other side of the god damn fence, this wouldn't have happened. If I had my gun, this wouldn't have happened.

I screwed up.

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Author's Note: It's 10:30 and I haven't seen the episode yet, rip. It's downloading right now, sucks.

-Virtually_Nerdy <3