Save Me ; Phan ~ completed

chapter 7

||Dan's POV||

I wake up at 5 from a night of tossing and turning. I contemplate the thought of going back to bed, but chose not to. I decide its better to get out of the house as fast as possible.  I scramble out of the bed and shuffle on something half decent, freshening up in the bathroom quickly. I frown at my reflection, not really thinking I looked particularly horrible, I just wasn't.. good looking. I tip toe down the stairs, careful not to wake my father or my mom who was sleeping on the couch. I go into the kitchen, standing there a minute and thinking about getting food. I decide not to and rush out the front door. 

I grab my bike from the garage, biking to the park. I've got a good 2 hours till school lets anyone in. I arrive at the small park, dropping my bike and walking to the swing set. I shuffle my phone from my pocket and plug in my earbuds. I turn on a playlist and decide to text Phil on the off chance that he might be up. 

Me- Hi, u up?

Phil- mhm couldn't really sleep

Me- me neither 

Phil- Where r u 

Me- that park where we met

Phil- Mind if I come over there in a bit

Me- not at all

Phil- see u in a few

I shut my phone off and put it in the pocket of my hoodie, swinging to the music blaring in my ears. I look around at the calm park, the sun just barely coming up. I like this time of day because hardly anyone is up, and I'm almost always up at this time. It feels like for once I'm by myself. Without anyone to ruin everything. 

In around 10 minutes I see a certain black haired boy ride up the sidewalk, on a bike. "Hey." I say, pulling out my earbuds and stuffing them into my pocket. 

"Hi." He replies, hopping onto the swing next to me. 

"Didn't know you had a bike." I say, used to seeing him driving around everywhere. 

"Honestly haven't used it in like a year. Just thought it'd be a bit weird for me to drive here."

"Yeah, that would be a little weird." I giggle, a smile on my face. Jeez, who knew I actually can laugh? Something about this boy makes me so happy.. I don't know what it is. 

"So how you doing?" He asks, eyes flickering up above my head. I raise an eyebrow, a bit confused as to why he does that so much. 

"As good as I can right now, I guess."

"How good is that?"

"Well, I would be worse if it weren't for you. So thanks." 

"Glad I can help." He says, smiling. I swear that smile could bright up my entire world. 

"Why couldn't you sleep?" I ask curiously, hopping off of the swing and walking to the steps of the play set, Phil walking behind me. 

"You know, when your mind won't stop racing about that same stupid thing? And no matter how much you try to sleep you can't?"

"Yeah.." I nod, sitting down and leaning against the pole.

"Well tonight was one of those. I got some sleep though. How bout you?" He asks, sitting next to me. 

"Do you want the depressing truth or a summed up version?" I ask, looking over to him. 

"Which one do you want to tell?" He asks, looking back at me. 

"The one that won't make you run away from me." I say softly, our eyes meeting. 

"So either one. I'm not going anywhere." He smiles, my heart picking up at how close we are. 

"You sure?" I ask, my voice just above a whisper. I don't know what Im thinking, but maybe he might kiss me right now. There's a pause, and he leans in, a hand cupping my cheek. 

"Positive." He says firmly, closing the gap between us in a short kiss. I'm genuinely shocked at the action, but I'm not gonna lie, I did kiss back. We pull back, my cheeks turning bright pink. "So, you gonna tell me?" He says, brushing it off because he knows I'd rather not talk about it right now. 

"If you want." I say and he nods. "I was honestly thinking about running away, or dying, as a way out. My household is.. Abusive and extremely toxic. It's the worst. I'm scared that if I don't kill myself, I'm gonna get killed by my dad, or someone at school. I know you don't wanna hear that but it's the truth. Not to mention all that goes on in my head.. I'm better off dead. No one would care anyways."

"I would."

"You'd be the only one." I sigh, laying down against the metal play set and looking up at the clouds. "But that's why I'm still here. Not to pressure you into sticking around.. You're free to ditch me whenever. I'm just letting you know."

"You know, maybe I don't want to leave. Maybe I rather like being around you." He says looking down at me with a frown. 

"Maybe." I whisper. "And maybe I do too."

"Good." He smiles, lying down next to me. Theres a long comfortable silence as we sit there in the misty park, deep in thought. "Hey Dan?" He asks softly, breaking the silence.

"Yeah?" I turn my head, looking at him.

"If you ever need anything, know you can call me. No matter what. If you need to you can stay at my place. And if you need to talk, I'm here. Okay?" He says, sincerity in his voice. A smile comes over my face and I lean over, hugging him. 

"Thanks." I mumble, so happy to have met him. I know its only been a few days, but he makes things better. 

~984 words~

I have a plan for this entire book because I've spent so much time writing it in my head instead of actually typing/writing it out whoops