Save Me ; Phan ~ completed

chapter 38

Smut. Literally just smut. If you don't read smut, don't read this. If you do read smut, go ahead. Warning, it ain't that good, and slightly awkward but I kinda like it?? k. enjoy, or don't, either way, I enjoyed writing it. I'll be posting twice today, just to have some 'real' content...

||Dan's POV||

Its much later, around seven or eight. We've been doing nothing all day, for the most part. We've done a whole lot of talking, which at least makes me feel a little better about it all. But me, being the needy little shit that I am, just want to kiss the shit out of him. Honestly, I wouldn't mind anything a little further then that either.

We've been sitting here, curled up together on the bed for a while. He's got an arm around me and I'm finally feeling that things are okay again. I look over at him and can't fight the urge to kiss him. I lean over and press a few kisses along his jaw, noticing the small smile appear on his lips. "Babe.." I mumble in between kisses, not sure where this burst of confidence came from.

"What are you up to?" He asks teasingly, as if he has no clue. Without hesitation, I grab the side of his face and turn his head so he's looking at me.

"This." I mutter, pressing my lips against his firmly. I don't know where this came from, because I'm not normally the one to start this stuff. I pull back and look him in the eyes before he leans in again and kisses me gently. His lips move with mine as I move so I'm straddling his hips. My heart is already racing, but it's not like its something we haven't already done. After a minute or so I pull back, sitting up with my hands on his chest. "I.. I'm sorry about everything that's happened lately.." I mumble, suddenly going back to the insecure boy I am. He pulls me closer so I'm leaning over him.

"It's alright Love. These past few days have been pretty hectic. We were both wrong in this situation. You don't have to feel bad about it. Let's just forget about it all for now, yeah?" He offers comfortingly, something about his voice in this moment is quite hypnotic.

"Okay." I nod, not knowing where this moment was going, but definitely okay with sticking around to figure it out. Yet again his lips meet mine and flips us over so he's the one leaning over me. His lips move to my jaw, then down to my neck. I whine softly as he nips at the sensitive skin.

"I love you baby." He whispers, causing goosebumps to rise on my skin.

"Love you too." I mumble, kissing him again. There's something about the way he kisses me, soft lips pressed to mine, moving in harmony. He knows just how to sweep me off my feet.

Before I know it his lips are back to my neck, forming hickeys along my pale skin. His hands trail to the end of my shirt and slowly tug it up, lips never parting from my skin. My breathing hitches as his fingertips glide against my chest.

"Phil.." I moan, my heart practically beating out of my chest. He take that as an opportunity to pull my shirt off. I can't possibly think straight right now, and I'm practically going out of my mind at what he's doing. I don't know how far we're about to go, but at this point, I wouldn't mind a few steps further.

I pull him closer, until our noses are touching and I can feel his breath against my lips. "Are you sure you want to..?" He trails off nervously. I've got one hand on his chest and can feel his heart racing almost as fast as mine.

I don't know how long it was until I responded, but a few things crossed my mind. Do I really want him to? Yes. Do I know that I can trust him? Of course. So, Why am I hesitating?

But what I did realize was, I think I want to be with him forever. No matter how much I try to push him away, I don't want to lose him. After everything that's happened, I know I wouldn't want anyone but him. So, here goes nothing..