Save Me ; Phan ~ completed

chapter 15

||Phil's POV||

I was severely worried for Dan, because that call didn't sound good. I knew it was a bad idea to drive him there, and I feel as if I've brought him to where he'll be raped and beaten. I feel horrible. I saw that bar go from light orange to deep orange, almost red. What was I thinking?

So now it's 1 am and I'm sitting in my bed, sweating through my t-shirt with worry. I texted Dan an hour ago and I can't help but think that for some reason, something terrible has happened. Then my phone rings, I pick it up seeing Dan's contact on the top. "Dan!" I say with relief. The relief is quickly turned to worry as I hear a sob.

"You were right Phil. You were right." He chokes out, a muffled sob coming through the line.

"What happened? Are you okay?" 

"No. T-They ra-raped me." He stutters, trying to breathe.

"Hey, calm down babe.. Its okay now. I'm here." I say, attempting to comfort him. I hardly notice the pet name slip as my heart sinks at his last sentence. 

"N-Not really.. I w-wish you were." He sobs, the tone of his voice breaking my heart.

"Me too baby.." I mumble as he sobs again, unable to catch his breath. "Hey, listen. Take a deep breath." I instruct, hearing a shaky breath escape his lips. Theres a long silence as I can't think of anything to say. What do you say when something like that happens?

"Can you video call? I look horrid, but I wanna see you." He mumbles after a minute or so.

"Okay." I say and soon enough he's looking into my eyes through the screen. He really didn't look good, he had a busted lip and a cut on his jaw along with hickeys all over his neck. He was still quite gorgeous, but he looked fragile.

"I should've listened to you." He mumbles, wiping his glossy eyes.

"Its not your fault."

"This wouldn't have happened if I listened to you."

"You had to go home. It would've been worse if you didn't." I say, my own eyes pricking with tears as I look at him.

"Death would've been better." He mumbles, biting back tears.

"I'm so sorry."

"Not your fault either. I just wish you were here."

"Me too." I whisper, my head swirling with possibilities. I want to know what happened so I can help, but at the same time I don't want to think about him like that.

"Phil?" He asks, breaking me from my thoughts.

"Hm?"

"Y-You aren't gonna leave me, are you?" He stutters timidly.

"Angel, why would I do something like that?" I ask, my heart breaking at the situation. He doesn't deserve this. No one does.

"I- Well.. I don't know. I just, don't see why anyone would stick around. I'm a mess."

"I can't leave you. I won't."

"Whatever you say." He mumbles. We ended up talking until the both of us were near falling asleep.

"You know Phil, you make everything okay. I just know that when I look into those blue eyes that anything could happen and I'd still have you. I hope to god you don't leave me because I won't be able to survive. I know its only been a week but I need you. I'm sorry that I had to drag you into my mess but I can't help it. I hope you don't leave because I love you. I really do. So fucking much. You keep me sane. I would've had a panic attack earlier, but I called you and everything is okay when I talk to you. I love you so much Phil Lester. and I know you might never feel the same, but I feel that way. I'd do anything to be yours. I'd give the world to run away with you and never look back on this fucking town. To get away with you. Because I know the only way I'm getting out of here is if I run, or if I die. I can't run well and I have a sprained ankle so we might not actually run, but.. I'm sorry. Now I feel crazy because I'm talking to you while you're sleeping, over the phone. What I'm trying to say is thank you. Because you really helped me today..." He trails off, and I can tell he's tired too. "Goodnight Philly." He whispers, hanging up the phone and I look up at the ceiling, slightly guilty. He thought I was asleep.. Maybe I'll just pretend I didn't hear a thing.

"The truth is I'd do anything for you too Dan Howell." I whisper to myself, knowing he isn't on the phone anymore. "And I'd like to run away with you too. But I know its easy to say and hard to do.. So we'll stick around for now. But know if it comes down to it, I'd risk the world for you angel."

~~837 words~~

I honestly don't know what this even is. 

I've definitely had better chapters, but hey! Hope you enjoyed, I might update again later today too. 

-M