Save Me ; Phan ~ completed

chapter 40

||Dan's POV||

The past 24 hours has been the best in a while. Just retracing all I've been through in the short time period is a little crazy. But all morning, Phil's been nothing but amazing. I swear I've fallen hard for him.. I can't help but wonder what forever looks like.

At the moment, I've climbed up a tree, pulling Phil along until there's a place we can sit. "Jesus Dan, how often do you do this?" He sighs, looking down at the ground below us.

"Well I used to a lot. But I only did like once, a week or so ago." I shrug, leaning against the tree.

"It's pretty cool. But terrifyingly high up."

"I tend to do stuff like that to myself." I say in a joking tone, although we both know I'm not kidding. He looks me up and down, frowning in thought.

"Why do you hate yourself so much?" He asks softly, leaning his head on my shoulder.

"I guess I'm just following what everyone's told me to. My dad, everyone at school, anyone that's ever looked at me. I widely disliked by the majority of people in this area. I guess I just followed the crowd."

"Surely that's not the only reason." He pouts, linking our fingers.

"Well no. I just know that there are reasons why people decide to stay away from me. It's not that they hate me, I know that. Most people are scared to talk to the freaky abused and depressed kid. I get it. I would be too. I know that the average person at that school wouldn't want to have to deal with my many problems. I wouldn't. I don't want to. I can't stand myself. So I don't expect anyone to either."

"Yeah, but-"

"That's where you come along. " I cut him off, pausing for a second. "You love me for the messed up human being I am. I don't know how, or why you can love me.. but you do. For god sakes, I don't even love me. I never expected anyone else to. So you just marched in and swooped me off my feet and it's quite terrifying. I don't know what the hell I'm doing. I don't want to get close because I'm expecting you to run off like everyone else. But you aren't everyone else. So.. thanks." I smile a little, so glad to have him.

"You're welcome angel. I couldn't just.. let you break down.."

"You know, what you don't realize is, most people, look at me and walk away." I start as he leans closer against me. "Most people see the bruises and black eyes and ignore it. Most people would see me crying and just stand there, pretending they don't see me. Most people see me pull up my sleeves and are shocked. So shocked they'll run off. They don't care. They don't ask. I'm practically invisible. So when you came around, it's like for once, someone acknowledged my existence!"

"How can people just ignore someone when they are clearly hurting?" He wonders worriedly and I can't help but wonder, how can he not realize how rude people really are?

"See Phil, most people would ignore someone like that. But, you are different. And hell, I don't deserve you one damn bit. But I wouldn't know what to do without you."

"I don't deserve you." He says, turning and looking me in the eyes. "I just wish you could see how gorgeous you are. I wish you realized that anyone would be so lucky to have you. And, there's nothing spectacular about me. But you, you're such a strong person. You've been through so much and can still handle everything the world throws at you. God there's nothing I wouldn't do for you love." He says, causing a blush to creep into my cheeks as he kisses me quickly.

I still find it hard to believe that I can be beautiful to anyone. But just the way he looks at me and I know he sees something I don't. Phil is too sweet to me.. all I get is love, and I'm nothing but trouble. And for some reason, he loves me, still.

"I don't know why, or how you could think that way. But I'm trying to understand. I know that you must be seeing something I can't. But you should realize you are nothing ordinary. I could never find someone like you."

"And I could never find someone like you." He mumbles, kissing me again, slower this time. "I think that's when you realize you've found your soulmate." He mumbles, hardly pulling away. My cheeks turn bright pink at the word soulmate. Although I think he's right, my heart races with anxieties.

"So that's what we are.. Soulmates?"

"Yeah. Soulmates."

~~803 words~~