Save Me ; Phan ~ completed

chapter 30

||Dan's POV||

I find myself back in the front of the school, sitting under that tree like always. I wonder to myself if Phil might come here and sit down like nothing bad ever happened. But I know that's not the case. I take that paper from my backpack and read over it, tears building in my eyes.

My stomach drops as Sam turns the corner and meets my eye. He makes his way over to me and sits across from me. "What's this?" He asks, grabbing the page from my hands and scoffing as he reads.

"Hey! Give it back!"

"Let me read it!" He says defensively as I shrink back.

"Whatever." I mumble, looking away.

"Danielle fucked up huh?" He wonders, eyes scanning over my writing. "I can't help but long to just hug him. Now I wish he could just tap me on the shoulder and pass me a stupid note saying, 'I love you'." He reads out loud, laughing. "Wow that's really gay." He comments, reading on. "Phil? The new kid? He's gay?"

"Well I don't know-"

"Hah, 'God Phil I'm so sorry. I just want to kiss you!' For real? This is so pathetic." He mocks, ignoring my comments on his statements.

"Can you please-"

"Just chill Howell. Let me finish reading before you rip it out of my hands." He rolls his eyes before continuing. "Well at least you know you're worthless.. And Jesus, who was this kid to you? And what did you do?" He asks curiously. The last sentence almost makes it seem like he cares about my life.

"I.." I trail off, not wanting to say anything

"Oh my god, we're you two dating?" He says quickly, eyes growing.

"Well.." I look away, biting my lip.

"Did you break up with him? Is that why you're being like this today?"

"I.. Well.. Uh.."

"Wow this is great." He laughs, and I realize he never really wanted to know to begin with. He pulls out his phone and takes a few pictures of the page.

"Hey! What are you doing?" I ask, grabbing my paper back and stuffing it in my backpack.

"Well something so poetic should be spread around, don't you think?" He says, typing away at his phone.

"No! Sam delete those!" I say quickly, my heart racing.

"You really think I'm gonna take orders from you? Come on Danielle.." He scoffs, standing up. "Hey, take your own advice. Maybe the world would be better with one less worthless fag." He says over his shoulder, walking away.

I break down in tears as soon as I'm left alone. Why is the entire world against me? In a matter of minutes, lunch is over and I'm walking back into homeroom. I sink down in my seat and bite back tears as I watch the class stare down at their phones and whisper to their friends. I just know that Sam has sent it to the whole school.

I look to the right to see Phil look down at his phone as it buzzes. He looks confused but his eyes widen as he continues to read. He glances over at me and I look away and nearly burst out in tears again. My heart practically shatters, I've given up completely. I'm over living. I don't want to deal with this anymore.

I stand up and rush out of the room, and down the hall to the bathroom. I sink to the floor, tears falling from my eyes. This is worse than any physical pain that anyone can do. This is heartbreak. This fucking sucks.

Then, there's a knock at the door. "Umm.. Dan?" A girl's voice asks, and I recognize it as Louise, a girl in my class. "You alright?" She asks again when I don't respond.

"No." I whimper, trying to calm myself down.

"I'm really sorry about Sam.. I don't know why he would do something like that. But.. I couldn't help but read what he sent. Do you wanna talk?"

"I don't know.."

"Hey, I'm not gonna just let you deal with this alone."

"Okay, I guess." I mumble, standing up and walking to the door where she's standing.

"You don't mind skipping Mrs. Porter's class right?" She asks as we walk down the hall.

"Not really."

"Listen, I know you think that no one at this school cares, but there are a few real nice people here." She says as we sit outside of the school.

"I doubt it."

"Well I'm here." She says firmly, looking my way.

"Phil said the same thing." I mumble, slouching.

"Hey, I'm sure he still cares Dan. I mean, I don't know the whole story, but if you care that much, he's got to have some feelings there."

"I know he does. But I pushed him away." I say, getting the urge to burst out crying again.

"Relationships are hard.. But if you two really love each other, it'll work itself out."

"I hope so, because this sucks." I mutter, looking up at the sky.

An hour later the two of us are waking back into homeroom, right before dismissal. "Hey Dan, If you want, you can sit with my group of friends. We've never had a problem with you, you just never seemed to want any friends."

"That'd be nice. Thanks." I mumble, not even sure if I'm going to make it til' Monday. But talking to someone helped a little. I still hate the situation I'm in, but its good to know that I might have a chance at a friend group.

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