Save Me ; Phan ~ completed

chapter 36

||Phil's POV||

After a whole lot of crying, we're back sitting on the bench. He's curled up against me, head on my chest. There's still tears in both of our eyes, but its a lot better then before.

He takes a deep breath before starting. "God.. I don't hate you. I just really fucking love you. And that's terrifying. I'm scared of falling, and that's exactly what happened. I don't know how to deal with it. And god I don't know why you stick around, but I can't thank you enough for it." He says quickly, nestling his face into my hoodie so he can't see my reaction.

Honestly, tears are staining my cheeks. Its good to finally know for sure that he loves me. As much as I said I knew that already, its worrying when he says he doesn't care. "I love you too Angel." I mumble, trying not to sound like there's tears falling from my eyes.

"Everything got worse when I ignored you. I was just scared to call you. Or speak to you at all. I'm so sorry. I promise I won't do that again." He mutters, hugging me around the waist tightly.

"I'm sorry too. I was too caught up in my own head." I say truthfully, constantly worried this would end the same way it did with Alex.

"Are you crying?" He whispers, not looking up but noticing the cracks in my voice and my shaky breathing.

"Y-Yeah." He chuckle, using a free hand to wipe my cheeks. "But you are too."

"I have plenty of reasons to cry."

"Me too Love."

"I probably have more."

"You're right.." I trail off, thinking back to the question I never got a clear answer for. "Why did you decide to text me now?" I wonder out loud, earning a quiet scoff from Dan.

"A lot of things. But, the big thing was.. Well.. My dad just.." He trails off, tears falling from his eyes again. "He raped me." He whispers, squeezing his eyes shut and hugging me tighter.

"Oh baby.." I shake my head, kissing the top of his head. I close my eyes, trying not to think about that.

"I'm sorry. That just made everything else from the past week come crashing down on me like a ton of bricks." He apologizes, finally stopping the tears for a bit.

"That's fine love.. Want to stay at my place?"

"Of course." He smiles as we stand up, walking to my car. He stops and pulls me by the hand until I'm standing right in front of him. The two of us look like messes, from over an hour of crying our eyes out. He's still insanely beautiful, brown eyes staring up at me curiously. "Phil? Can you kiss me?" He asks timidly, as if regretting the words as they slip from his lips. He blushes, making me smile.

"You didn't have to ask Angel." I mumble, cupping his cheek and leaning in, pressing my lips to his. It's nothing much at first, innocent even. He stops, pulling away, but not too far, as our noses are still touching. He pulls me closer by the back of the neck and I use my free hand to grab his hip, pulling him in until we couldn't possibly get closer.

He giggles, his lips meeting mine again. It quickly escalates, going from timid and innocent to 'its been far too long since we've kissed.' And honestly, that's true. After this week all I've wanted to do is kiss him. Those lips are simply addicting. When we pull away, both of us are blushing hard with bright pink swollen lips. "Let's go, yeah?"

"Kay." He mumbles, and we get into my car, driving to my house. The car ride is silent, the two of us with so much on our minds.

When we arrive I walk into the house with my arm around him. My brother smiles at me from the couch and I roll my eyes, the two of us making our way to my room. When we finally reach my room I flop onto the bed, exhausted. "This week was a mess." I mutter, yawning.

"You're right about that." He sighs, sitting next to me. "Talk about all the things that could've gone wrong."

"Well we got a long weekend, we have Monday off for some reason." I say hopefully.

"Teacher meeting or something." He mumbles without much thought, hugging me.

"You can stay here this weekend."

"I hope so.. As long as my dad doesn't order me back to the house." He shakes his head, yawning.

"Let's just get some sleep." I say, knowing that neither of us have slept well in days. He just nods, shuffling under the sheets.

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A/N- this was a weird way to end the chapter its kinda awkward but I didn't know how else to put it. Whoops?
Also school starts TOMORROW.
I'm freaking out. Someone murder me. I'm not gonna survive this year jfc.