Save Me ; Phan ~ completed

chapter 24

||Dan's POV|| -Wednesday Morning-

I walk downstairs and decide to grab a bite to eat before heading out the door. I find some sort of granola bar and a bottle of water. Well I was expecting something a little better, but no one goes to the store or buys any food so..

As I'm about to walk out of the house I notice my mother sitting on the couch. "Mom?" I ask quietly, trying not to wake my father.

"Hey sweetie." She says softly, looking and acting seemingly normal. "How have you been holding up?"

"It's not good mom." I say shaking my head and sitting next to her. I don't mind being a little later to class. My mom's never home. "Dad's getting worse." I whisper, biting my lip.

"Hey." She smiles sadly, grabbing my hand. "I'll try to be around as long as I can.. It's not easy. I could take you with me next time."

"No, I can't go anywhere. My bo- f-friend, My friend. I've finally got a friend." I stutter, embarrassed.

"A boyfriend?" She asks softly, a smile crossing her face.

"Well, I don't know yet really.." I blush, looking down at my hands.

"Awe that's lovely honey." She coos, rubbing my arm gently.

"Dad just banned me from seeing him all week." I groan, slumping back against the couch tiredly.

"I'll try speaking to him. You really need someone right now. I want to be that person for you, but I know I can't be."

"Don't worry, I think I'm in good hands." I smile, slowly learning that Phil might actually be the best thing that's happened to me in a good 5 years.

"You really like him don't you?" She asks, noticing my starstruck daydream eyes.

"Well.." I cover my face to hide its redness, smiling like a dork.

"I can tell. It's okay love."

"Yeah.. You don't care that it's a guy?" I ask softly, suddenly self conscious about it all.

"I've never cared.. I'm sorry I'm never around.. Its really complicated."

"I.. Thank you mom." I rush forwards and hug her tightly, tears flooding my eyes. For once I've got a parent that doesn't hate my guts. She accepts me for the freak I am.. As messed up as that sounds.

"No problem. But don't thank me. I've been the worst for the majority of your life."

"I get it.. Anything with dad involved makes things difficult."

"Yeah. Don't worry Daniel.. One day this will all be behind you. You'll look back on stupid days like this and laugh. You'll say how crazy your father was and it won't be as hard as it is now. If it's the last thing I do, I will make sure you get out of here alright. Even if it costs my life. All I've ever wanted is for you to be okay. I know I failed as a parent. Just promise me you'll get out of this place Daniel." She says firmly, making the tears fall from my eyes and stream down my cheeks.

"I.. will." I say, wiping my eyes. "Hey, I've got to get to school, but we can chat later on yeah?"

"Alright honey. Have a good day."

"I'll try." I mumble, standing up and grabbing my bag. "Bye mom, love you." I wave, walking out the door and hopping on my bike.

When I get to school I immediately walk into homeroom where Phil is sitting at his desk. Luckily, he had my phone and we spent the first 10 minutes of class talking. I filled him in on what happened this morning, and last night with my dad.

The rest of the school day is quite bland and expected. We move through the classes like normal and I try to spend as much of the day with Phil as I can. I still needed to tell him that I love him too. I just can't say it in the middle of math class. I feel like that'd make me a little weird. At lunch Phil and I sat there talking with the occasional kiss that made my heart do somersaults.

I came home to a quiet house, despite both of my parents being in the same building. My dad was passed out in his room and I suppose my mother was out, doing god knows what. Looks like I came home on time to no one caring. My father wouldn't have even known if I went to Phil's. I'm not going to push it though. I drag myself to my room, laying on the bed and grabbing my phone.

Me - this is honestly annoying. my dad is passed out in his room, theres no point in me being home

Me- he just likes to ruin my life

Phil- that sucks

Me- yeah. (Thats what she said)

Phil- ur the worst

Me- ik but u signed up for this

Phil- yes I did ;)

Me- ew stay away from me

Phil- thats not what u were sayin yesterday

Me- ...

Me- ur an idiot

Phil- I could be worse

Me- oh ik u could

Me- but fr my dad sucks ass

Phil- I'm sure he does

Me- I want death but he deserves death

Phil- accurate, except ur too perfect to want to die

Me- I'm far from perfect philly

Phil- you might not be what most call perfect, but ur perfect to me

Me- that was real cliche

Phil- thank you.

At this point I'm curled up under my covers, smiling like an idiot at this silly conversation. How in the world does he make me so happy?

Phil- Do you actually like me too?

Phil- like, love me?

Phil- never mind those last two.. I'm just.. never mind

I smile at the little slip up of insecurity only because it makes me realize he worries too. I knew he cared. He's just the one always showing it. I care, and I love him too, I just find it hard to express it well.

Me- aw phil

Me- of course I fucking like you. Why else would I be with you?

Phil- but I'm just me.

Me- Phil no. You aren't just that. You're the most amazing human being I've ever met and that's not even an exaggeration. I say a lot that you're nothing but nice and you always care about me.. But I forget to mention how unbelievably hot you are. I'm surprised everyone isn't all over you at school. Your touch, your kiss.. God you're fucking perfect. I don't know what you see in me. You are you. Which makes you amazing. And the truth? I love you. I'm not sure of anything else involving that.. but I do love you.

Phil- thank you angel.. I'm actually crying now so..

Me- don't cry.. its the truth.

Phil- love you too..

Me- just.. don't leave.

Phil- I won't. I promise.

I turn off my phone, my heart fluttering at the conversation we've just had. I can't believe I just typed that to him.. Falling for him and just a little bit ago I was trying to stay away from him.

~~1169 words~~

Also sorry for the loads of texting in this ch. it just seemed more reasonable then typing out dialogue over the phone.

-M