The brooks brothers Little sister (a janoskian fanfic)

Chapter 73- fix you

Ellie's POV

I love that short moment of peacefulness you get when you first wake up, before all your worries and problems come flooding back to you.

I woke up in skips bed, he was still asleep snoring, I checked to myself before getting up and going to my room.

I laid down on my bed and found my phone, my cheek burned and I suddenly remembered how beau has slapped me, it hurt deeper than just the surface of my cheek.

I knew when to keep my distance and I was going to stay as far away from beau as possible.

I then took a shower and got dressed into some denim shorts and a white tank top, I straightened my hair and then did my makeup.

I then went downstairs to find Jai sat in the kitchen, he was eating some toast.

I hesitated before walking in, he stared up at me looking deeply into my eyes.

"Is it true beau slapped you?" He asked, taking me by surprise.

I guessed that Daniel told him or something.

I nodded.

"Come here" he told me.

I walked over to where he was sitting slowly, Jai brought me into a soft hug, I'm guessing he wasn't mad at me anymore.

"I trust you to not run away again, okay?" He asked.

"Okay" I agreed, as he rubbed my back.

He pulled away and grabbed my face, he examined my cheek and started poking it.

"Oww" I moaned.

"He got you good" Jai mumbled, still looking at my cheek.

"Yep" I agreed sighing.

I got some cereal and sat down and started to eat it, not long after beau walked in.

He saw me and quickly looked away ignoring my presence, I didn't want to talk to him either so I also looked away.

After I was done I quickly got up and left going up to my room, and laying down, before I knew it I was crying again I hated it so much when Beau was mad with me, I didn't even wanna be here right now.

I fisted my pillow in anger before sobbing into it, I hadn't cut myself in ages, but I was really tempted. I wanted something to take away the pain, I couldn't do it anymore.

I got up and walked into the bathroom, going over to my razor, hesitating a bit before sinking down the wall and cutting the razor deep into my skin. It stung but I didn't care right now, it distracted me from everything. I didn't see the point of being here if I couldn't even do anything right.

Suddenly the door swung open and Jai stared at me wide eyed, I stared at him back.

"El put it down now" he said calmly.

"No Jai, you don't understand" I cried as I sliced through my wrist right in front of Jais eyes.

He gasped in shock as he ran forward and grabbed my wrist, snatching the blade from my hand and throwing it across the bathroom.

He then grabbed a towel off the side and quickly wrapped it around my wrist that was seeping with blood.

He then sat down and pulled me onto his lap, I leant my head back on his chest as I cried. He held my wrist that was wrapped in the towel as he applied pressure to stop it bleeding.

He didn't say anything, I don't think he even knew what to say to me, he had just seen me slice my own wrist.

"Please never do that again" jai said in a whisper.

"I can't promise you that" I whimpered.

He sighed, "I thought you had stopped this ages ago" he said raising his voice a bit.

"I wanna die Jai" I said out of nowhere, I didn't think about what I was saying, it was true though.

"Nah Ellie, don't fucking say that" Jai almost sounded angry.

"What's the point tho, if everything is just going wrong" I cried.

He didn't answer, he just got up and took the towel off my wrist, leaving me on the floor. He then came back and started wiping it with a damp wash cloth, it stung so bad. After he was done he looked me dead in the eye, lifting up my chin so I was facing him, the look in his eyes was so intense.

"You aren't gonna die Ellie brooks, you need to stop this shit" he said so seriously, I don't think I've ever seen Jai so serious before.

I didn't know what to say, I was a mess and I couldn't even help it, he probably hated me as well, everyone probably did.

He looked at me as if he was waiting for me to day something, I just stared at my arm, wanting to do more.

Jai sighed softly before saying "come here" and opening his arms wide for me.

I collapsed into him as I hugged him tightly.

"We're gonna get you though this" he said as he hugged me.

I didn't say anything I just hugged him tighter.

After a while he pulled me up and lifted me, carrying me, he walked into his room and put me down on his bed, helping me get under his covers.

"I'm gonna play Fifa, wanna play?" He asked as he also got into his bed.

"Sure" I said as I wiped my remaining tears and took the remote off him.

"Stay with me for today okay" he said as he turned on the Xbox.

That was his way of saying he didn't trust me and he was scared I would do something stupid.

We played Fifa for a while, it distracted me a bit, Jai obviously won.

After a while we stopped and Jai turned to me, it took him a while but he eventually spoke.

"promise me you'll stop" he said, looking down at my arm, referring to the cutting.

"It's not that easy" I spoke.

"Well if you don't stop, ill tell Beau and Luke" he said confidently.

I just stared at him and shook my head.

"It's simple El, if you do this again beau finds out" he said proud of himself.

He then saw the look of shock in my face and he softened a bit, he bright me into a hug, rocking me a bit.

"I'm gonna fix you" he whispers into me.