Obsession and Possession (BXB) ✔ (UNDER REVISION)

Chapter Sixteen

Feelings

It's been a 8 months since the day I met Gaze. The one who devirginized my ass, the one who beat me up, the one who became my master and the one who change my life.

After that night, when he said to me that he's lusting over me and when we cuddle, I can't help but to remember it again and again, last thing I knew I found myself smiling like an idiot and like an inlove teenager.

In the past four months of denying my feelings for him. I always told in my self,

'Why the hell I will fall for a guy like me? It's so impossible and disgusting."

That sentence always popped in my mind when my subconcious tell on me that I'm inlove with Gaze.

Funny thing, I searched on google how to confirm that a guy is inlove. And to my surprised, I experience it all. But still, I don't believe it and trust the google. I need to confirm it by myself again.

Ridiculously, after a few days I confirmed it. I am inlove with Gaea Zeus Dark. How?

I don't know how but I felt it. The abnormal heartbeats, butterflies in the stomach, the sparks, envy and jealousy to the girls he dating. The hurt and the pain.

But everything's different now when I start to feel that he's starting to act cold at me. Like I was a complete stranger to him.  And today, he texted me to meet him at his office. I get excited because I miss him so much, it's been a week since I last talk with him.

I immediately go to comfort room to take a bath. After that I wear the shirt he gave to me and a ripped pants. I smile when I saw myself on mirror, I see that my eyes shines because of excitement. And for the first time-- I fixed myself to be handsome infront of him.

After I told my Mom that I will go out, I called a cab for a ride. Minutes after, we're infront of the school. I pay the cab and thanked the driver.

I took a breath before I walk towards the huge gate. I gave my I.D. to the guard before I enter the university. No students and no teachers because it is saturday.

When I reach the room of Gaze, I wear my big smile and enter. My smile faded when I saw Gaze banging a girl on his bed.

Gaze look at my direction but he still continue moving his hips above the girl. Like he doesn't mind that I am here.

I just stare at his cold and no emotion eyes until our eye contact break when he looked at the ceiling and growled. He's done.

"Get out." Malamig na sabi ni Gaze. Gulat siyang tinignan ng babae bago napailing-iling. Pinulot niya ang mga damit niya at isinuot iyon.

"Thanks for giving me the best fuck, babe. Call me again, alright?" Maharot na sabi nito pagkatapos mag-ayos ng sarili. Bumaling ang tingin niya sa'kin, nanlaki ang mata niya at namula. Yumuko ito at nilagpasan ako. Lumabas na siya ng kwarto.

"Wag mo nga'ng ginagawang motel itong office mo." Sarkastikong sabi ko kay Gaze.

"I don't need your damn opinion, faggot." Nasarado ko ang bibig ko. Faggot? Akala ko ba tapos na kami diyan? Ngayon ko na lang ulit siyang narinig na tawagin ako sa pangalang iyan. At nasaktan ako 'don kahit na parang totoo na nga ang sinabi niya dahil nga nainlove ako sa isang lalaking katulad ko. Para kasi siyang diring-diri sa pagkakasabi 'non.

Huminga ako ng malalim. "Bakit mo ako pinapunta dito?" Malamig na tanong ko at umupo sa couch niya.

Pinasadahan niya ang buhok niya bago nagsalita. "Clean our mess." Sabay turo niya sa kama na magulo. Bumagsak ang balikat ko.