Obsession and Possession (BXB) ✔ (UNDER REVISION)

Chapter Eighteen

Gaea Zeus

I'm staring at him while he was peacefully sleeping beside me. I love looking at his face and his every reaction. I traced his closed eyes, his small pointed nose and his pink tempting lips that always inviting me to kiss it. So I did. I closed my eyes and feel his sweet soft lips. I bit his lower lip and stared at his face again.

The first time I laid my eyes on his blue ones, my heart beats abnormally. I know the first time I saw him, I already like him. But it's like what the hell? I liked a guy like me? Is that even possible?

In the park, where the first time I got near to him. Just damn, my heart thumps faster when I saw his beautiful blue eyes closely. I don't know what's going on my mind because I keep calling him a faggot even when I know that he's not. It's either he had a face like a girl or I just want to pissed him off. To notice me.

And goodness, when the first time I kissed his sweet lips that night. Damn, I get addicted. So I planned the punishment-- that is fucking him. I don't know to myself, I just can beat him up for the punishment but I choose the other way. To taste his sweet lips again. I know, I've always hurt him physically. It's just, I don't like his words. When he says that I'm the real faggot between us, I got pissed and punched him. I think because I'm guilty... fuck this.

I planned everything including that his section is same as mine. I want to be his classmate, to see him always. But the jealousy strikes on me when I saw him talking with Chain. I beat Caius again and blackmailed him. And that's the first time too I saw him cry. My heart broke, but I need to be cold that time. To make him mine in other way.

And the girl I planned to flirt in the door of our classroom so everyone can see, especially Caius. I wanted to see if he'll get jealous and when I see it in his eyes, I'm grinning like an idiot that day while I'm sitting at the back of him and Chain.

On that day too, breaktime. I followed him in canteen but my head hurts and I feel sick. When he gets back, he is asking me in worried tone, my heart melt nut I don't want him to see that it affects me so I just pissed him even my head hurts.

When he  raccompany me to my office and take care of me even I didn't asked him to do that, I felt warm in my heart and to my stomach. When the night comes I asked him to stay with me and he did, I felt so damn happy that time. He cooked for me third times and I felt so special. When we kissed and cuddled, I felt a tingle sensation on my body.

As the days passed, I am falling for him more. And when I admit to myself that I love him, I planned to confessed to him. But for my surprised I saw him with a nerdy girl. Jealousy and insecurity strikes on me. He's so sweet to that fucking nerdy girl so I assumed that he is her girlfriend. I blocked my feelings to him because of my insecurity. I know that even I confess my feelings to him, he'll still choose that girl and reject me because why the heck he will thinking of choosing a guy instead of a girl that have a boobs ang pussy? He'll think that he's crazy and maybe, will disgust at me. Damn, my heart just broke into pieces on that thought.

I became cold at him again and acted like he's a stranger. I dated other girls just to forget my feelings for him. I fucked girls too, but everytime I do it with them, I always saw his face. In the end, I always get frustrated because I can't come!

On the day I texted him to meet me in my office, I brought a girl and fuck her on my office, and then Caius caught us. I look at him blankly and to my surprise, I saw shock and pain in his eyes. Or I'm just hallucinating?

"Wag mo nga'ng ginagawang motel itong office mo." He said in a sarcasm tone after the girl left my office. I've got pissed. Sino siya para pagsabihan ako ng ganiyan? Doon na lang siya sa babae niya.