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Chapter 50: Red Ring

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She's strong enough to walk away but broken enough to look back
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Alexander's POv

I stood by the door frame, watching her silently. Astrid was sitting by the window, eyes so far away, looking at nothing in particular. She's been like this since she got her memory back. Always so distant, always zoning out. It wasn't her anymore.

She rarely eats and never talks. She also refuses to drink blood anymore. She's slowly loosing herself and it pains me to just watch her suffer as I couldn't do anything to lessen the load she has.

Leon and Elise, visited her a few days ago. I informed them on her situation and thought that maybe she needed someone to talk to and maybe she'll respond to Elise but she only cried with her and never spoke a single word.

At night I had chosen to give her space and slept in another room close to her and every single night, she cries herself to sleep. I could hear her uneven breathing, the fast beating of her heart and the sniffing. I can never rest until she falls asleep. Hearing her cry was a nightmare every single night.

I've been staying at home with her. I wanted to be close to her. The incident in the bathroom was something I don't want to witness ever again. The floor was filled with her blood, her body full of stab wounds but the most terrifying was the anger in her eyes. She almost killed herself if I came in a little later. That is why I don't want to leave her alone in this house, now that Damien decided to go back to the island, there will be no one else that could stop her once she tries to hurt herself again.

She's probably not aware of it, pero nasasaktan ako sa tuwing nakikita ko siyang ganito. Laging wala sa sarili at malayo ang iniisip. Ito ang isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit inilihim ko ang totoo sa kanya. Alam kong sisisihin niya lang ang sarili.

I know she deserved to know the truth about her past but she was better off without these memories. Why would I tell her the truth when it will only cause her pain and grief? Hindi na mababago pa ang nakaraan kahit alam niya o hindi ang nangyari. Kaya kung hindi lang nangi-alam si Sabrina ay pipiliin ko nalang na itatago ang katotohanan hanggang sa huli. Just the thought of her dead family before, made her seek for revenge, what more now that she knew she killed them? I just wanted her to be happy. Pero mukhang mahirap nang mangyari iyon.

Ito din ang dahilan kung bakit pinigilan ko siya sa pagpatay ng mga bampira. I knew seeking revenge was worthless because not a single vampire killed her family but she was very persistent so I let her do what she wanted. I also introduced the blood bank to her giving her another way to feed instead of hunting. Little by little, I was changing her mind but it was all ruined in a single day.

Astrid might seem brave and fiesty, she might have killed hundreds of vampires and not afraid to die but it doesn't take a wise man to see how weak and miserable she was. All the things she's been through is something unimaginable. Kung ibang tao siguro ay baka hindi na nakayanan ito ngunit iba si Astrid. Pagkatapos nang lahat ng nangyari sa kanya, she's still living. And seeing her alive means she's still fighting.

Nayon ay siguro naman may ala-ala na na siya sa akin at sa nakaraan. Kung pano ko siyang palihim na pinagmamasdan sa tuwing nagpupunta siya sa bayan upang mamili. Nang mga panahong iyon ay iniibig niya nang lubusan si Liam. Masakit man sa akin ang nakikita siyang masaya sa piling ng ibang lalaki ay mas pinili ko nalang na itago ang aking nararamdaman.

She was genuinely happy with him so why would I ruin that? I thought seeing her with someone else is painful, may mas isasakit pa pala. I felt it first before anyone could ever notice her condition. I knew from that moment that she had the disease and to watch her suffer from it is heartbreaking than anything else.