My Prim and Proper Prince (Under Editing)

Chapter 59. Operation

MATINA
All is ready. His operation scheduled today. Nakalipat na kami dito sa Manila. After a few hours, ooperahan na siya. Hindi pa rin sya nagigising simula kahapon nang dalhin namin siya sa hospital. Halos dalawang araw palang kaming 'di nagkikita literally but it feels years to me. I miss him so badly, I want to talk to him. I want to hear his voice. Kung gising lang sya I'll tell him how much I love him.

"Matina." My Mom tapped my shoulder. I lift up my chin to face her. "Kumain ka muna." I shook my head in respond. How can I eat in this situation. I'm not sure if I could see him again. I want to believe that he'll passed this but I can't myself from worrying. Hearing what's doctor said yesterday makes me feel trembled. Napakaliit ng chance na maka-survive si Andrew sa operation na ito.

"You need to eat Matina please 'wag mo naman pabayaan ang sarili mo. Isipin mo naman ba mag-aalala rin ako para sa'yo."

Alam ko naman na may nag-aalala rin para sa sarilu ko. Pero hindi ko kasi kaya. Napapagod na rin ako sa kaiisip kung ano ang mga pwedeng mangyari. Ayaw kong isipin pero natatakot kasi ako. I feel any moment pwede siyang mawala sa akin. Any moment, pwedeng hindi ko na siya makita.

"I'm sorry Mommy, I just can't help. I can't Mom." I said sobbing. "I don't know what will happen after this Mom, hindi ko kaya na mawala si Andrew," it makes me feel crazy thinking of the possibilities.

Mom rubbed my back and hugged me. "Sssh... don't say that! Hindi mawawala si Andrew okay? He'll going to survive. He's brave, I know he can. Just believe Matina. Magdasal lang tayo tutulungan tayo ng Diyos."

"Mom, sana nga pakinggan ako ng Diyos. But how can he listen to my prayers if I'm the one who cause this problem?"

"How many times do we have to tell you that don't blame yourself. Hindi mo naman gustong mangyari 'to. Wala kang kasalanan anak. Walang may kasalanan walang may gustong mangyari nito. I'm sorry din kung napagalitan kita."

"Totoo naman Mommy, this is all my fault. I am the one to blame."

"Sssh Don't say that, that's not true."

Our conversation interrupted by Tita Leila saying that everything was ready. Ililipat na si Andrew sa operating room and any minute the operation will start.

"Tita, please pwede bang makausap ko muna si Andrew."

"Matina... "

"Please, where's the doctor I want to talk to him." the doctor came out of nowhere. I hold his hand begging if I can see Andrew first bago umpisahan ang operasyon.

"Okay I'll give you 20 minutes. After that sisimulan na natin ang oprasyon." the doctor answered bago umalis sa harap. I don't waste my time and hurriedly went to his room. I saw him still lying helplessly in the hospital bed. I wipe face and blinked many time to prevent myself from tearing up. Dahan-dahan akong lumapit kay Andrew at naupo sa tabi niya.

"Andrew please 'wag naman ganito. Please lumaban ka naman. Gumising kana please. Wag mo kong iwan. Hindi ko kaya Andrew." I hold his hand and placed it to my chest. Katapat ng puso ko. "Do you remember the first time we saw each other?" I smiled when I remember those times. "Naalala mo ba we're not in good term, Tinarayan kita and did the same way."

"Sa totoo lang, at first I find you boring. Nerd, bookworm, prim and proper. You're far from my dream guy. I would never imagine I'd fall for a geek like you." I smiled "But now look at me? I can't live this life without that geek beside me." Pinigilan kong muli ang pagtulo ng luha sa mga mata ko. "I know that I'm not your dream girl too. I know you like simple girls not a bratt like me. But as they say opposite attract. At tama sila cause I get attracted to my counterpart."

"Andrew sinabi na sa'kin lahat ni Lianne. Alam ko naman na wala kang kasalanan. I'm sorry if I get blinded by jealousy. I just don't want to see you with another girl." I touched his face and smiled as I see his handsome face. He's looking peace." I kissed his forehead. "Magising ka lang kakalimutan ko lahat ng nangyari. Kahit hindi kana magsorry, I'll forgive you right away. And besides, wala ka naman talagang kasalanan. Ako pa nga dapat magsorry sa'yo if it wasn't for me you're not here." I hold his hand tighter. "Kaya please gumising ka na. I will do everything magising ka lang. Hindi na ko lalayo sa'yo. Hindi ko na papayagan na magka-away tayo. Lalawakan ko rin 'yong pag-iisip ko. Makikinig muna ako sa'yo before I conclude to something. Ikaw 'yong una kong papakinggan. Sa'yo lang ako maniniwala. Kahit pa makita ko na hinahalikan ka ni Lianne. I would not let jealousy strike me. Hindi tayo magpapasira sa kahit na ano. So please Andrew, gumising ka na!" I gently kissed his hand and hoping na magigising sya. I spent my time staring at him. At nagulat na lang ako sa sunod na nangyari. His hand move and slowly he opened his eyes.

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