Black Rose (completed)

prologue :heartbroken

sarah

I woke up this morning feeling like a total loser, I slept late last night because I had stayed up late watching movies. it has become a habit lately because I find it hard to sleep these days, I thought of asking my dad for sleeping pills but I know he'll want to know why I was having trouble sleeping and I couldn't tell him. he won't understand and I'm not the type of girl who likes to share, maybe dats why it hurt so bad.
I didn't talk about it with any of my friends I just tell them I'm fine but I know that's not true, am hurting real bad.
I wish I could talk to my dad about it, but I can't just keep running to my dad every time a guy breaks my heart. this time I decided to handle it on my own.
I got down from my bed and made my way to the bathroom. After taking a long shower I felt more alive, I brushed my teeth and spent some minutes looking at myself in the mirror, asking myself why, why had Sam decided to hurt me this way, we had been dating for almost a year until he decided to rain hell on me.
I never expected that from him, I thought we were meant for each other.
It all happened the day we left school for the long break, I was with my friends after school had vacate. we were chatting and planning on what to do during the holidays.
My two cousin brothers Michael and Micah were one of the most popular guys in my school, they are twins but not so identical, their best friend Job or J-bee as we all call him, is dating my bestfriend Rita, so our group is a perfect group of five.
Just as we were teasing each other, I saw Sam coming towards us so I quickly got up and went to meet him, he held my waist and planted a soft kiss on my forehead, I smiled and placed my hands on his chest.

hello babe" he whispered in my ears.

"how are you sweetheart" I said blushing.

"I'm fine" he replied.

"how's my baby doing" he added

"really good" I replied

"babe are you coming with me to Jerry's party ? he asked.

"uhm noo " I answered

"why? he asked surprised

"I can't............ Jerry's party usually lasts till dawn" I said rolling my eyes.

Jerry was one of the most popular guys and a worst player than my two cousins combined. he throws parties all the time and he happens to be my boyfriends bestfriend.

"and so? he asked.

'my dad don't like me staying out late' I said.

I didn't want to go to Jerry's party, actually am not a fan of parties I usually attend them because of Sam.

"are you serious? he asked

"yes of course" I replied.

he let go of my waist and drew in a long breath, he looked at me intently. he always give me that look when he wants to convince me to do something and I always give in but this time I had made up my mind. I didn't want to go to Jerry's party because his last party I attended turned out real bad. they made me take something I dint even know and I completely lost control of myself for the rest of the night. my dad had always warn me about drugs. as a doctor he knew the effects and I've always listened to him, till I met Sam. He had always made me take one thing or the other, I didn't even drink till I met him.
I was not OK with it but because I loved him I go through with it, but it had to stop. I'll break my dad's heart if he finds out and I didn't want that.
so I said strongly

"I'm not going to Jerry's party"

"Owk ' he said.

then he turned and left.

That evening I sat wondering if I should give in to Sam or stand on my word. he had looked sad and it bothered me, I loved him and I did want to spend time with him just not that way, not at Jerry's party.
I kept worrying and finally I gave in, I decided to go. I didn't tell my bestfriend Rita cos I knew she'll be against it, so I dressed up quickly and went.
something kept telling me it was a wrong move but I was a blind girl, a girl blinded by love.
When I got there, the place was crowded, a lot of people from my school and many others. I knew the spot Sam and his friends always stay so I made my way up there.
But what I saw there will forever be in my memory. Sam was seated with all his friends and a half naked girl was on his laps, she had her arms all over him.
I stood there frozen, not knowing if I should go forward or turn back, it was as if time stood still.

"Sarah! I heard Jerry call

and I saw Sam turn to look at me, he just sat there looking at me! not even attempting to get up or shove her away.
I felt like passing out, my legs grew week and I felt like vanishing into thin air.

"nice party Jerry " I said slowly

not knowing where I got the courage from.

"thanks' he muttered.

"I I should get going" I shuttered and turned to leave.

"wait Sarah " I heard Sam called after me and I stopped.

he got up from where he was and walked up to me.

"its too early to leave' he said

"well I see you've got a better company ' I replied sarcastically.

"c'mon sweetheart, its not what you think' he said attempting to take my hands.

" oh I'm blind eh' I said drawing back.

"OK am sorry, let's go dance" he said smiling.

I looked at him my mouth open not knowing what to say, what did he take me for! a fool? he thinks this is an apology and what did he expect! that I'll go dance with him and pretend like he was not fucking around with someone behind my back? fuck him!

"bastard! I finally said

"what! what did you just say? he asked.

"you were fooling around with someone behind my back' I yelled.

" and so what! just who the hell do you think you are? he blurted out.

"oh ' was all I could say.

"I can do whatever I want, with whoever I want, whenever I want OK, you don't own me!" he said.

'is that so? I asked

"yeah, you refused to come to the party with me remember?

"its not an excuse Sam" I said

"oh if you're not willing to have fun with me I shouldn't look for someone who will? he asked.

"listen Sarah , you're a beautiful girl, a popular one, you're loved by many and many consider you a damsel, you're a perfect girlfriend. you always look good beside me and you really did increase my standard in school but nothing more...............I never loved you, I just dated you because you made me look good, but since your not willing to roll with me , you can go to hell." he added.

I just stood there like my world had come to an end, I wished I really had magical powers and I could disappear or fly away. I slowly turned and walked out , I walked out with tears in my eyes from the boy who stole my heart, the guy I thought was my other half, the guy who took my virginity............

and I swore to myself, I will never be hurt like this again.