Black Rose (completed)

chapter fourty five

Sarah's POV

I stood staring at my phone for a while before I picked up the courage to dial Steven's number. He didn't pick and I had a feeling he's still mad at me, I kept dialing. Pick up Steven! Pick up!
When he didn't pick the ninth time, I gave up. Maybe this is not the right time, I thought, but I really wanted to see him now. I wanted to clear things today before I lose the courage to do so, I wanted to tell him I had feelings for him.
Something told me to go straight to his house and knock on the gate, but then what if he was not home, or what if he doesn't want to see me, he could tell the securities to throw me out. He can't be that heartless though.
I was about to tell the taxi driver to turn around when I heard my phone ringing, it was Steven!
I picked immediately.
"Hello "

" hi Sarah, sorry I missed your call " he said

" I called nine times, I understand you're still mad at me but........"

" I was swimming " he said cutting me off. And I heard his breathing was fast.

" swimming??

" yea. With my dad, I hardly get to spend time with him so I make good use of it when I get the chance. "

"  ok "

" yea so what's up?

" I want to see you " I said straight up

" what for? If I may ask "

" to talk, please just hear me out "

He paused. " when?

" now "

" now??

" yes. I'm close to your house "

" what!! He shouted and I was confused.

" ye.....ss but I'll understand if you're busy " I said slowly

" it's just..................I ummmm...." He stammered.

Why was he shuttering, is he doing something else.  " are you sure you're just swimming?? I asked.

" what do you mean?

" is this a bad time? Are you alone??

" really? I'll have someone excort you to my room " he said and ended the call before I even had the time to reply.
Why did he end the call quickly??
Is he really with someone??

When I got to Steven's sitting room I sat down and waited fidling with the ring on my thumb. I was nervous, but I was relieved because there was no sign of anyone else been here.
After a while he walked in wearing burbery shorts and a white T-shirt and was drying his hair with a hand towel.
I stood up immediately.

" hello Sarah " he said standing close to the door  for a while staring at me before he walked into the room. " what can I offer you? He asked 

I shooked my head. He looked at me and then at the couch.
" I'll stand " I said and he nodded slowly.

" how's your swim? I asked breaking the silence after we stood staring at each other for a while.

" oh now you believe I was swimming? Tell me. What did you think I was doing?

" having sex " I said bluntly
" I called nine times and when you picked you were breathing fast"

He scuffed. " sex? Oops. You seemed upset. Why?

I was silent and just looked away.

" ok Sarah don't mind me, what did you want to talk about?

I raised my eyes to look at him, he had finished drying his hair and was holding the towel with one hand. I couldn't find any words to say, I felt dumb. He held my gaze and was waiting eagerly to hear what I wanted to say, I summoned up all my courage
" Steven I..........." I started and stop and then decided on something else, I walked straight to him, he opened his mouth to say something but then my lips were on his,  my hand went slowly up his arm and the other to his neck. He was still at first, shocked! But then he let go of the towel in his hand and putting his hands around me he drew me close, he deepened the kiss as my hand went to his hair which was still wet.
When he broke the kiss he looked straight into my eyes.

" oh Sarah " he whispered, his hands were still around me. " have you come to taunt me?
I shook my head " no "

" but Sam. You said you still have feelings for him " he said moving his thumb over my lips.

" I went to see him today, I had to. I had to clear things with him, I wanted him to know all the feelings I used to have for him is gone. I know I admitted to still having feelings for him but I was wrong, I loved him but that was then. What I felt for him was long gone since I met you, cos even when he kissed me all I could think of was the time we kissed, and what I had felt then"

" He kissed you? He cuts in immediately
I nodded slowly "I wasn't looking for anything at all when I met you, I wasn't planning on..............things just happened. I found myself slowly wanting to spend time with you, it was easy, it was nice, it started like nothing but then I realized I felt something............ You brought back a smile to my face, you made me feel again. And if I hurt you it was not my intention. I guess my fear of getting hurt again was just too great to let me trust you. "

He looked at me for a while and then lean in and kissed me again.
" Sarah I ............I don't know what to say "

I reached out and drew him into a hug and he wraps his hands around me too, and at that moment I felt peace.........