Black Rose (completed)

chapter twenty five

Sarah's POV

" good morning Sarah "

I raised my head to see Sam looking down at me,
I saw him after the assembly but we couldn't talk cos I had maths first period and the teacher was very punctual. Now it was time for physics but the teacher was yet to come.

" good morning Sam" I replied.

" can I use your seat for a moment please " he asked Rita.

" owk " she said and got up, she went to seat somewhere else.

" we have physics " I said growing nervous

" the teacher is absent " he replied.

" OK " I said and looked down.

He turned his seat to face me and I could feel his eyes on me but I kept my eyes straight and didn't turn to look at him.

" Sarah I know I owe you a lot of explanation " he started. " but I don't know where to start. I just want you to know it was not my intention to hurt you, I really am sorry for everything " he stopped and licked his lips " but you should know Steven is not the right guy for you "

I turned my head immediately that I fear my neck will snap. I didn't know what I expected from Sam but definitely not this, I thought he will say he wants me back, I thought he will tell me he loves me and that all he had said was a mistake.

" is that all? I asked and my voice sounded strange to me.

" Sarah you wouldn't understand "

" then make me........ " I said feeling anger rising inside me

" you think I'm a bad guy now but believe me Steven is worse "

" why bring Steven into this, this is between me and you Sam "

" there's nothing left for me to say than just that one day I hope you'll forgive me and I hope your pain doesn't drive you to do something you'll regret "

" an apology is not what I expected from you Sam, I needed an explanation.............. But since your not willing to give me that I guess we're done here " I gave him the fakest smile ever. 
" and Sam about Steven, I'll do what I feel like doing. and its none of your business or concern "

" I was just looking out for you. you don't know him like I do "

" I don't care................I got this ok"

" owk " he said and got up, he paused like he wanted to say something and I drew a long breath, but then he walked away without saying anything.
I released the breath I was holding and I swear I wanted to cry.
I turn to look around and my eyes met Jason's and it seems he had been looking at us the whole time, he gave me a friendly smile and nodded at me as if assuring me everything will be fine. I smiled back at him and brought out my book to work on one of my assignments but I couldn't concentrate........

After classes I avoided my friends and told my uncle to drop me at my mum's boutique when he came to pick us.
I didn't go out doing break instead I hid in the library alone, I had planned on talking to Michael about Wama but then I was in no mood, today turned out to be a really bad day.
When I was younger I would go to my mum's boutique after school and then we'll later go home together, it was a habit and today I really felt like doing that again. Even during the ride my uncle noticed something was wrong but he didn't bother me he just dropped me off.
I went in and I realized I actually missed coming here, it's been a while I came.
My mum was busy so I just dropped my bag in her office and went round the boutique, first I checked out the clothes, then the shoes and then I went to the cosmetics section. I met one of the sales girl I was familiar with and we chatted for a while, she showed me new items and also said I should come around more often.
When I went back to my mum's office she ordered lunch for us and we ate together, she kept asking me what was bothering me and when I saw there was no way I could convince her that I was ok I told her I had a fight with a friend and that the friend said she never cared.
My mum took in the counsellor job and kept advising me on what to do even telling me I should apologize to my friend.
I said I'll take her advice and ended the conversation, if only she knew......

She had a makeup job to do so I followed her to the make up room, the lady was a bride who had her sentforth party today, my mum set to do her job and I watched quietly as the lady's face was transformed,  I later grew bored and slept off.

When we got home that evening, I had a lot of missed calls, from Rita, Michael, Micah, Jason and Steven. I knew Rita had told them about my little talk with Sam and I know they feel sorry for me.
I didn't call back any of them, I made up my mind that tomorrow I was going to appear in school normal and my life continues and I won't show any sign of hurt or pain.
What's done is done..........I lay on my bed that night and wept.