Black Rose (completed)

chapter thirty eight

Sarah's POV

As I sat on the bench in the school compound after my classes, I kept thinking of what to say to Steven when I see him today. Yesterday he was taken home and Michael had called me in the evening and told me Steven was ok, he didn't give me any details, I guess he was still mad at my outburst in the cafeteria.
Throughout the day, there was whispers about Steven and it seems every conversation was about him. Some said he fainted, others said he was vomiting, some even said the saw blood in his mouth. The rumors were everywhere.
I apologized to my friends during break time but Steven and Jason were absent. I told them it was wrong of me to grow mad and yelled at them when they were only looking out for me.
They all accepted my apology and we plan on visiting Steven today after our classes. We were all going together so I told my brother to go home without me. I sat on the bench waiting for them.

Rita was the first to come and she joined me on the bench.

" you're here " I said.

" yea, Sarah I wanted asking you something but I was waiting for us to be alone "

" go ahead "

" what you said yesterday about Sam, did you mean it? Do you still have feelings for him? After you kissed Steven?

" can we not talk about this please " I said not comfortable with the question but I know she was right. When I told her about the kiss, I was so excited.

" ok if you say so but just so you know I found out from J-bee that Jason and Steven had conferred to them that they use to have this friends that were not good guys, but that they are not friends anymore  "

" but they seem like friends when we went to Sobi with him, he introduced them as friends "

" it still doesn't mean they are in on Alex's revenge, and Sam has got to stop putting his problems on you "

" I'm not worried because they're in on Alex's plan and I might get hurt because of Sam, I am worried because if they are, then it means Steven's feelings towards me is a lie " I said quietly.

She didn't say anything and we sat quietly and waited for the rest. When they came we got into the car and drove off.
They drive to Steven's house was quiet, Micah was chatting on his phone and everyone else seem not to be in the mood for talking.
   we arrived in no time and we were been led to his room by one of the house attendants.
It was the first time I was in his bedroom, his room was big with clean white walls and the bed was big enough to accommodate five people comfortably. The room was simple yet very unique and beautiful, velvet drapes framed windows, the lace inner curtains remained drawn allowing daylight to enter while rendering the heart stopping view of the compound and neighborhood as well.
When we got in Steven was lying on his bed with the sheets over him and Jason sat on a chair close to the bed, he had his legs on the bed and was texting on his phone. Even from where I stood I saw how pale Steven looked.
" hi guys " he greeted when he saw us and he sat up and lean on his bedstand which was enormous and the craft work was inquisitive. He looked around and seem surprised when his eyes landed on me, I guess he didn't expect me to come visit him.
The boys found their way on the bed and Rita sat on a chair that was near the bed, I stood by the bedpost like I was an outcast till Jason noticed me. " hey Sarah come sit here, he said offering me his chair "

I hesisted for a while because the chair was very close to Steven, and right now I don't think I had the courage to look into his eyes, not after declaring I still had feelings for Sam yesterday. I told him I needed time to figure out how I felt about him but then I openly agreed to the fact that I still had feelings for my ex.
I took the seat and sat down slowly but shifted it so I wouldn't be facing Steven directly.
I just couldn't bare to look into his eyes.