Missed Opportunities // Dan Howell x Reader

Chapter 25

(A/N: Just added the song bc I listened to it a few minutes b4 editing this chapter)
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Chapter 25

Y/N's POV

"The kiss." I thought to myself as I sat on the couch in the lounge

The kiss was more than I could handle. There was tension, anticipation, lust, passion.

So much passion

We waited for so long. It was eating me up inside. Having to be his friend when I wanted something more was beating me up inside. Eating me alive. I felt kind of guilty for loving my brother's friend- but there was also so much pain. The pain of seeing him everyday and wanting to kiss him until the world had ended.

And then "BAM!"
We finally got what we wanted.
And it was all so right.... wasn't it?

There was obviously no doubt about my feelings for Dan. But did he feel the same? Or was our kiss just for my benefit? To help me feel better, or to give me what I wanted (because I looked so desperate and he could tell all along)

Dan came in with a glass of cold water. Part of the perfect way of getting over any panic attack I was having -or in this case about to have,

to get me over my pain for Maddie.

But before I could even discuss what happened to her - I need to stop living this way first. I can't handle it. Doing things that'll only hurt me. Missing all opportunities with Dan. It's time to clear this up

"Here ya go" Dan says putting the glass down in front of me, still standing.

"Dan?" I was ready to talk, "What are we doing?"

"What do you mean?" He asks. But I could tell he had a sense of where this was going

"You kissed me" I took a long pause "why?"

He freezes before sitting with me on the couch with wide eyes.

"Why?? I love you Y/N. You are the most beautiful person I've ever met. Not only do you look gorgeous but your personality goes right along side it. I cherish every moment you spend with me before you leave to hang out with another friend. Because that's all we were until I did what I did. Friends. And it killed me to live that way. Especially these past weeks when all I wanted to do is tell you how I felt. Everything you did and do is precious. The way you laugh and your nose crinkles, the way your eyes sparkle and it makes my whole world stop, how you let me snuggle you when you're cold. You are everything. And when I saw you upset I knew I never wanted to see you that way ever again." He paused and sat down next to me

"I kissed you because I've wanted to since the day we met."

I took it all in.

"But you kissed me back -
Why?" He asked, copying me

At that moment I smashed my lips on his. There's no way I could beat his 'speech'. And I probably wouldn't be able to contain myself cutting it anyways

"I love you too."

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A/N: tell me if you enjoyed this or not. I really enjoyed writting it

What will you do next, and who are you gonna tell?

(also I'm planning on doing authors notes a lot <3)

-Lei xox