Missed Opportunities // Dan Howell x Reader

Chapter 41

A/N: HOLY SHIT. HOLY SHIT.
OH MY GO- PHIL'S NEW HAIR IS HERE TO STAY AND IM NOT COMPLAINING ABOUT IT. HE LOOKS SO MUCH BETTER!! I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS DAY.
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Chapter 41

Phil's POV
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"..."

"..."

"...Is your face okay?"

"Yeah, it will be in a while"

"..." Well this is intensely awkward. I knew I needed to say something. I look back at Dan who has an ice bag on his cheek.

"Look, I'm really sorry. It's just everything happened so quickly, and there were old memories and-"

"Hey! I'm fine. You weren't being yourself I understand. Kinda upset we hadn't gotten to this point BEFORE you hit my face, but I still get it." He says and we do a slight chuckle

"So, are you gonna tell me what happened in the past or...?" He asks

"Yeah, let's sit." We head over to the dining table. I grab the blue chair and Dan goes for the black.

We sit across from eachother and I look down at my hands.
"Y/N hasn't had the best relationships in the past."

"Meaning..."

"Well. You have your occasional dates that just don't work out. But she also had relationships with different people who have played with her emotions. She went through really strong heartbreaks to say the least - I was worried that you would break her." I admit

"I would NEVER do that. Surely you know I wouldn't do that." He looks worried

"I wasn't thinking about you specifically! I just thought of you as another guy who was gonna crush her. Then that mixed with the idea of my friend going behind my back with my sister. And just the... thought of you together. It's not like that could come easily." I said.

"I'm sorry. We were just scared of your reaction. Especially me. I like her so much I didn't want anything to ruin it. And as for the first part, I'd never do anything to hurt her. I never want to see her hurting..."

That's when I remembered that moment at the hospital. He's telling the truth. He really did care, didn't he

"Dan?" I break the silence

"Yeah?"

"You never knew, Maddie. So, why were you crying in the hospital?"

"I just told you, didn't I? I'm not like everyone else she's been with, Phil. I actually love her this time. You don't need to worry about that. I've never felt like this before. I'd never want to ruin my friendship with you, but I know I'd be broken to let her go." Once again, he didn't care I was there. That it was me he was talking to. He told me how he felt because.... he really cares

"Oh. You love her?"

"PLEASE DONT HIT ME AGAIN!" He yells and braces himself

"No no. It's just weird to hear you say. So, you love her?"

"Of course."

"Well then you're gonna hate what I'm about to say..."

5 minutes pass and Dan hasn't said a word. I'm teary eyed but Dan looks like someone just died and he doesn't even know how to react. There's just pain. And it's not from my punch...

"He hurt her?"

"Yea" I choke out

"He really hurt her?"

"Dan..." I try to get his attention. He's not asking me a question anymore. Just repeating his disbelief out loud

"No. I just- who. Who would hurt her?"

I stay silent and put my head down. I don't know the answer....
Sick people I guess
Sick, horrible, people like him

"Did you think-
I would hurt her?
... Physically?" He says. His voice shaking

I slowly look back up. And think about it hard before watching Dan's eyes on mine.

"...No," I answer honsetly. I never thought of Dan himself hurting her. I just thought someone would and suddenly Dan was the enemy. It never even occured to me that it was DAN. He would never.

"I just- I wasn't ready for her to date again. I thought anyone who was with her was a monster. And I'm so sorry I thought even for a second you fell into that category." I apologize again

"I know it must be hard. But just remember she's her own person, okay? You're gonna have to let her go at some point. Not completely, but you understand." Dan chooses his words carefully

"Yeah. I get that now."

"By the way, it doesn't have to be. The person who's with her I mean. They don't have to be a monster. You know me, I'm your best friend. She's safe now, because I actually want her to be." He says

I walk over to him and he stands up with his ice bag leaking slightly on the table (he didn't need it anymore). I give him a quick hug

"I'm sorry. I trust you, I promise. I'm okay with it"

"You sure?"

"Positive. Wow. I'm acting like such a dad."

He laughs slightly.. "Thank you."

And the next day I made "I'm sorry for punching you in the face pancakes" for him and all was well. We both went over to Y/N's to tell her the good news.

Let her know we're okay and that she doesn't have to worry about Dan and I's friendship. She was so excited that she jumped on Dan's waist and he spun her around, both of them smiling.

And after looking at this-

I have to admit it... I kind of ship Y/S/N

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A/N: Well there you go. I gave it a peaceful and non-cliffhanger ending

You're Welcome
(And if you don't remember, Y/S/N means Your Ship Name- but I'm sure you were smart enough)

-Lei xx