Missed Opportunities // Dan Howell x Reader

Chapter 50

Chapter 50

Y/N's POV

Damn. Dramatic much? I thought to myself as I continued walking away.

He's an idiot- but I can't tell him what to do. I'm not his relationship coach, I'm his girlfriend. He should know not to-

And in the middle of my thinking I bumped into someone. I looked up... far up. And saw Phil looking back down at me.

"Hey-"

"Phil. Know when to pick your battles..." I stated in a strong and concentrated voice, "this isn't one of them." I sighed.

Yes. I want to talk to him. We used to talk about everything and I'd usually let him make my problems disappear.

But Phil also wasnt a coach
Not to mention, way too emotionally connected to this.

As I walked up the short amount of stairs I smelled the heavy air of pool water and drinks. The sky was incredible, I wished I could share that with Dan. This whole thing was so stupid.

"Y/N!" I could make out the sound of a quiet voice that yelled my name.

"Y/N! Over here!" And as I followed the voice through the sounds of stupid decisions being made, by people who had way too much alcohol, I saw Dodie. Dodie who happened to be with Thomas again and I walked towards them.

"How are you?" She asked. And in that moment I felt like breaking down thinking of the truth

"Want a drink?"

And then I got presented with a better idea

"Gladly." I reached out to take the beer from Thomas until he pulled it away and grabbed my hand

"Before I give you this, are you okay?" he asked with such sudden seriousness, "you seemed a little down today."

He was right. I couldn't drink, I've barely eaten anything today and I'd be an emotional disaster

"I'm having a relationship problem. And it's bringing back some old feelings."

"Bad feelings"
"How'd you guess?"
"Because you're crying." Dodie added. And before I knew it I felt a year fall. It was very light and didn't make it all the way down my face before disappearing.

I was really trying to keep it together. But I failed. Like I do, constantly.

So a few minutes later I was sat on the outside furniture, telling Thomas and Dodie the end of the story.

The all too problematic story

Thomas was being fairly positive. Telling me Dan's actions weren't the greatest but I would get through it and I could talk to him about anything so I shouldn't wait so long (to do so) next time.

Which was sweet and true. But not what I needed at the time. I wanted let off steam. Do something stupid because why the f#ck not?

And it seemed like Dodie understood when she blurted out, "fuck that. We're gonna drink and be sad like adults."

And we were off- with Thomas as our caretaker

He made sure I didn't drink too much and walked Dodie and I back to my hotel room before the party was over

--time skip--

Dan's POV

I couldn't really drink. I was too busy thinking about y/n. I had to say something

"I'm gonna go find y/n." I said to Phil as I put on my shoes

"Woah woah. Are you sure? You seem a bit high on adrenaline, maybe you should wait-"

"Are you gonna make me?" I said with a crack in my voice. I wanted to cut the crap. If he wasn't gonna let me then there was no point in trying.

But with a sigh he confirmed,
"No... This isn't my battle."

So I turned around,
Only to hear one last sentence:

"But it will be if you screw up."