Living With My Future-Ex °[KathNiel] ✓COMPLETE

Chapter 35: Tearful Night

Rylai

Nag-aayos ako ng mga gamit ko dahil bukas na ang flight ko pabalik ng Cebu. While I was packing up, tita Miah came in to hug me. She was so emotional that it made me cry too. Sobrang nadudurog ang puso ko sa magkahalong sakit at panghihinayang.

"It's breaking my heart, Rylai."she muttered. "I've always been praying all along that you will be my son's wife and be the mother to my grandchildren. I've never doubted your love for Blaze and it is a mother's joy to be assured that her son's going to be taken care of. You are a blessing in our lives, anak."

"Tita... Thank you. Thank you dahil tinanggap niyo ko ng buong-buo. 'Wag po kayong mag-alala, natitiyak kong mamahalin ni Crystal si Blaze ng higit pa sa pagmamahal ko. And you will still be a mother to me, tita Miah. No one can change that."I honestly admitted and returned her embrace.

Pumasok rin si tito Snow. Nang yumakap rin siya sa'kin, tuluyan na akong napahagulhol. They are like real parents to me. Even when I was in Cebu, they made me feel all those years that I belong to the family. And it just hurts so much knowing the reality that it will remain as it is, only in the past.

"Ako na ang hihingi ng tawad sa mga pasakit na dinulot sa'yo ni Blaze, Rylai. Sana kapag naghihilom na ang mga sugat diyan sa puso mo, mapapatawad mo pa ang anak ko."tito Snow apologized.

"Napatawad ko na siya tito. Hindi naman ako nagtanim ng galit sa kanya. Sapat ng baon ang walong taon na meron kami."

Buong araw na hindi ko nakita si Blaze. Ang alam ko, bumalik na siya sa condo niya. Samantalang si Ashton naman ay sasama sa'kin sa Cebu kaya hindi na ako pumunta sa kanila ngayong araw. I took all the hours today reminiscing every good and bad memory that I'll be leaving in this room.

"Matulog ka ng maaga, Lalai."saad ni Ashton over the phone. "Isang araw lang kitang hindi nakita, nami-miss na kita ng sobra-sobra."

"Ang oa nito. Matulog ka na rin diyan, magkikita rin naman tayo araw-araw kapag nasa Cebu na tayo."

"Goodnight, baby. I love you."

"You know that I love you too. Goodnight Ashton."

Ipinikit ko na ang mga mata ko dahil kanina ko pa gustong hilahin ang oras para sumapit na agad ang bukas.

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MY HEART WAS BEATING so fast when my senses got awakened and realized that someone was hugging me. I don't have to open my eyes to see who it is. I know his scent—the fragrance of his hair and the scent of his perfume. In my conjecture, Blaze was hugging me for almost an hour now since I woke up but I pretended to be asleep. In the next few minutes, I heard him sniffing while he kissed my nape. Pinigilan ko ang sarili kong maiyak dahil ayokong malaman niyang gising ako.

"Sana pwede kitang pigilan, penguin. Sana pwede mong marinig 'yong laman ng puso ko."I heard him say making my heart constrict in pain. "Sana pwede mong marinig na mahal na mahal parin kita."

No. Blaze, you can't tell me that. I've made a choice already. I'm done waiting for you to tell me that. Please, 'wag mo ng guluhin 'yong puso kong pilit kong pinatatahimik. Tama na Blaze.

"You may leave me now Rylai but you will always have my heart with you."he murmured between his secret sobs.

Ano ba? Ba't kailangan mo'ng ipaalam sa'kin 'yan ngayon kung kailan nakapagdesisyon na ako? Please, tama na. Ayoko ng umasa. Pagod na pagod na akong masaktan.

"I'm sorry about that night I let you hear Crystal's name in my sleep. I wasn't really sleeping during those nights. Lahat ng sinabi ko no'n Rylai, para sa'yo 'yon. Ikaw 'yong mahal ko. Ikaw lang ang mahal ko."

No. No Blaze—Please stop... Yes, I remember those nights so vividly but no. He can't mean all these. Hindi na pwede. Lagi ko namang narinig na sa kanyang ako parin pero bukas paggising ko, ipagatatabuyan na niya naman ako.

"I've always waited for midnight to arrive because it's the time of night that you lurk in my room to see me and tell me you love me. Lagi kitang hinihintay na pumasok para nakawan ako ng halik. Paano na 'yan ngayon, Rylai? Paano na kapag iiwan mo na ako?"

Hindi na siya nagsalita at ang tanging naririnig ko ay ang tahimik niyang hagulhol habang nakayakap parin sa'kin. I knew that he was sobbing because his arms and shoulders—his body, is shuddering uncontrollably.

"I found the woman, stronger than anyone I know... She shares my dreams I hope that someday, I'll share her home..."he suddenly sang in a voice like a whisper. "Baby I'm dancing in the dark, with you between my arms..."

He continued singing while my eyes can't be constrained from letting out my tears. What is he doing?

"I have faith in what I see now I know I have met an angel in person. She looks perfect. I don't deserve this; you look perfect tonight."

Eventually, he stood up and when I heard his footsteps fading towards the door, I quickly wipe my tears. Sumilip ako at nakita ko siyang nakahawak na sa door knob pero nakatingin sa'kin. Mayamaya pa ay nilapitan na niya ako ulit. Muntik na akong mapahagulhol nang halikan niya ako ng matagal sa labi.

"I love you so much, baby."he whispered, his breath filled my nostrils.

He was drunk. I can smell the alcohol in his breath.

"I love you. I love you. I love you."paulit-ulit na bulong niya. Kasunod no'n ang pagpatak ng luha niya sa pisngi ko na nagpaagos narin ng luha ko.

"I love you so much, Rylai."

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AUTHOR'S CORNER:

Ano ka ngayon Blaze? I mean, ano 'yang ginagawa mo? Hahaha. Wag mo ng pigilan habang kinakaya pa niya. -_-