I sat in my bed in my apartment in LA. I thought about...Jonah. I don't know what Jonah is anymore, one minute we're cuddling on the couch and the next, he has a girlfriend. He tells me he loves me and that he will forever but then he gets a girlfriend and invites me over. He will purposely kiss and hug her in front of me. I have come to the conclusion that I am done crying over him. Now I need to tell him that but he's on tour.
I feel like he needs to love me now or...never but I want to keep him around forever and it's so hard... No, I need to do this for me! He said he would call me and text me everyday but it's been a week with nothing from him and I know that the other boys make time for me. And if I call him he never picks up and I'm done! He always has a lot of love but I guess he can't spread it out to me...
I snapped out of my thoughts when I heard my phone ring. Speak of the devil himself! I answered.
Call:
Y-Hello?
J- Hi beautiful!
Y-don't all me that
J-But I would be lying if i didn't!
Y-You're used to it
J-Woah! What does that mean?
Y-Jonah it's now or never
J-What does that mean?
Y-I need to know that you're mine...I mean you tell me all these sweet things and then never pick up the phone to call me! The other boys make time but I think that I understand what's going on...
J-Y/n, I know that i've been a jerk but I will answer all your calls and I'll call you all the time okay?
Y-I-I can't trust you anymore...whatever this is, is over
J-What do you mean love?
Y-I mean that I don't want to talk anymore so goodbye Jonah
End of call
I put the phone down and let the tears stream down my face. Y/n you did it! It hurts but you won! Now you can start new...but it hurts so much.I decided to get some sleep even though it was only 6p.m.
~Next day~
I woke up feeling upset but like weight was lifted off of my shoulders. I ate some breakfast and decided to watch Beauty and the Beast since that always helps.
'Look there she goes the girl that's strange but special! The most peculiar madmazel'
The amazing song was interrupted by a knock at the door. I paused the movie and walked to the door. When I opened there was Jonah. He smiled widely and hugged me. I pushed him off.
"Jonah I told you that it's over," I said fighting every urge not to hug him.
"I know but it's now," He says.
"What?"
"You said the I had to love you now or never," Jonah says walking closer to me,"and beautiful, it's now."
