A Lot can change in four months. In only four months I have went from the always positive, happy me to a depressed, pessimistic person. My grades have dropped, I've lost friends, and I have almost lost my job.
To think that the reasoning behind this was just because of one boy. One cute, funny, smart, talented boy that I let go of because of my insecurities. One boy that I miss so much and it's slowly breaking me.
My friends tell me to move on and get over it, but what they don't understand is that he was more than my boyfriend. He was my bestfriend, my soulmate, my reason for happiness, my number one supporter, my everything.
It sounds stupid but that's what love is. It's unexplainable but it's something you want forever and I let that go because I wanted him to succeed and I felt like I was in the way.
I looked at my phone and decided I've hurt long enough. I pressed the green call button and waited for him to pick up.
"Hello?" I heard Jack greet.
"Hey," I smiled into the phone.
"Um how have you been?" He enthusiastically asked.
"Not so good Jack. I um...I miss you alot. I'm sorry for ending things I just, I thought I was getting in your way of succeeding and so I broke it off. I never stopped loving and caring about you. I've been really bad. I almost got fired, my grades are really bad, and I've lost a lot of friends. I know that this might be crazy to have me just call you out of the blue and tell you all of this but could we...could we maybe try again? Let's start over and let's just go an a date maybe?"
"Wow. Yeah that'd be great!"
"I know you love the little pizza place downtown, do you wanna go there?"
"Yeah! I'm off tomorrow so anytime works."
"Great! I'll see you there tomorrow at 1," I tell him.
"See you tomorrow!"
And with that I hung up with the brightest smile I've ever had. The only smile I've had in awhile. And it was all because of that boy.
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I got out of my Uber and took a deep breath before walking inside the pizza shop. Jack looked up from his phone and smiled at me. He stood up and hugged me. We pulled away and sat down.
"So how have you been?" I asked.
"Well better now that we're trying again. The band is doing really good though," JAck smiled.
"The man band?" I laughed.
"Yes our man band is doing great!" Jack smugly replied.
We talked for awhile, ate some food, and then went for a little walk.
"So I know we said that we should start slow but it's really taking all of my strength not to just kiss you right now," Jack grinned.
"Who said you couldn't?"
