If you have purple hair, pretend it's a different color for this one.
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Denial. That was the state of mind I was in. It was all because of Jonah. We were best friends and we both had feelings for eachother. We both knew that but no one ever made a move. That was okay since we both never flirted with other people. We both kind of had this mutual agreement that we stuck to for months upon months until finally the boys had to go on tour. When Jonah told me I just kissed him.
We both knew what it meant and we both knew that we would wait for each other during tour. Everything was norma. Jonah facetimed me, said he loved me, told me he wanted to hold me. That was normal for us but then he posted this video on his Snapchat.The video showed him and a girl holding hands and he captured it with 'all mine.' My heart sank and I immediately blocked him on everything.
That was two months ago. still have had no contact with him. The boys still text me and we talk all the time. They tell me it was a misunderstanding and that Jonah misses me but I ignore it. Today they were coming back. It didn't affect me and I went on with my day like normal until I got home from work. I walked inside my apartment and there on the couch was none other than Jonah.
"What are you doing here?" I interrogate.
"I came to talk to you, I've missed you..." Jonah sadly answers.
"Well I don't want to talk to you Jonah, you hurt me," I tell him.
"I don't understand what I did. I remember everything was normal but then you blocked me and I-" Jonah starts but I cut him off.
"You posted a video of you and a girl holding hands and it said something like 'all mine.' I thought at the time that we were both waiting until you got off tour."
"That was a video of you!"
"The girl had purple hair! Do I look like I have purple hair??" I say pointing to my y/c hair.
"You dyed it for that galaxy photoshoot, remember?"
I stood there in awe. He was right, and I couldn't believe it. I tortured myself for months because of my stupid mistake.
"Jonah I am so-"
"You thought that I would do that to you?"
"Jonah I was in denial and I'm sorry!"
"I have to go," Jonah say before leaving me alone to cry in bed.
