Me and Zach's relationship is... complicated? I love Zach and he knows that so he pretty much plays with my heart. He always confuses me. I don't know if he sees me the way I see him. He has said some things and always had my back so I've been hoping he does. But then again there's only room for me if it's easy for him.
I was so frustrated with it all. He always does this and I've been letting him for the past almost 2 years! So, after a very confusing discussion with myself, I decided that I was going to tell him. Zach had just sat on the couch and I mimicked his action. looked him in the eye.
"What is this?" I simply questioned.
"What do you mean?" Zach asked with confusion.
"Our relationship," I answer.
Zach stayed silent so I spoke up.
"Zach you make no sense! You spill all of your secrets in confidence and do these sweet little things but then it changes," I explained.
"Well-" Zach started but I cut him off.
"But you're such a goddamn pro, and I never really know if your just faking it. When it's easy for you than there's always room for me, but if you have plans than I'm just a throw out ad in a magazine," I further explain.
Zach again went silent.
"You fuck up my head! I swear you could and have done wrong about a hundred times but I always try to rationalize. Zach I can't keep doing this and I won't," I conclude.
"I have no words. You're right. I'm a dickhead who doesn't deserve you, but you always stick with me. I love you Y/n," Zach says.
I smile and Zach kisses me passionately. And that day was filled with love but, ll good things must end. That good thing me and Zach had ended the next morning. He left and I thought we were okay but then he played with my heart again.
I sat on my bed thinking about what to order when I heard a knock on my door. I opened it to find Zach. He had a big smile on his face. We got settled on my bed, since Netflix was already set up, and I waited for him to talk...big mistake.
Zach droned on and on about this new girl. Her name was Zoey and she was' absolutely gorgeous. Her smile lit up the city' and he was so happy. My heart was crushed.
"No," I simply state.
"What?" Zach questions.
"No. No to all of this," I reply.
"You can't kiss me and tell me you love one day and leave the next morning. Then you ignored me. I let it slide but now this!" I yell.
Zach tenses at the tone of my voice.
"You can't and will not tell me all about her and then try to swallow those words later to sleep in my bed!" I continue.
"Get out. Now. And do not EVER come back or I swear to god I will get a restraining order Zach," I quickly conclude.
"What! No Y/n-'
"Get out now!" I scream.
Zach quickly got up and left. I can't do this to myself anymore and after today, I finally saw that Zach Herron was not for me.
