What's wrong with my life?

Chapter 4

Nia POV
I was reading a book while drinking another green tea when my phone vibrated.
𝖴𝗇𝗄𝗈𝗐𝗇- Wassup
Me- Who's this?
𝖴𝗇𝗄𝗈𝗐𝗇- Xaiver😒
Me- Ohh hey
My sister Tasha came in the house yelling. "I don't give a fuck. Go ahead and fuck her she a lil ass girl. You a grown ass man." "Why you tripping man? We ain't even together." "But you live with me and sleep with me. So don't disrespect me period." "You be tripping mane." "YoU Be TRipPing maNE." She mocked. I rolled my eyes and closed my book.
Xaiver 😎- I'm bored you want to come help me watch my brother?
Me- Yes I'll meet you outside in 10.
I took off the shorts I had on and put on some leggings. With a jacket and my ugg slides. I grabbed my phone and charger. "I'm out." "Where you going?" "To a friend house." "Be back before 10." "Yeah." I said walking out. Considering the fact that it was 5:00 I'm pretty sure I'll be back before 10. When I made it to the bottom of the stairs. He was already waiting for me. "Is that all your hair?" "You got jokes huh?" He chuckled. "Yes this is my real hair." "Let me feel for tracks." "Go ahead." He put his hand on my head and felt through it. "Damn Girl you got a lot of hair."  "Yeah I know." "That shit don't make you hot?" "No. I'm so glad you ain't say nothing ignorant like what you mixed with." He laughed. "That shit is annoying. People be like your eyes are so cute what you mixed with like what?" "Or your skin is glowing what you mixed with." We laughed as we entered the house. I took my shoes off before I walked on the carpet. "I'm back. You can come out." A little head peeked out of the corner. "Who's she?" The little boy asked. "My friend she came to help me watch you." "Your gwrilfran?" "No no just a friend." He shrugged and grabbed my hand pulling me to  his room. "Hea." He said handing me a truck. "What's your name?" "Xaine." "Well Xaine I'm nia." "Nia you like xai?" "No he's my friend. How old are you?" "3." "Wow you're so smart to only be 3." "Mama teaches me a lot." "She does huh." "Yeah." "Maybe I can help her teach you. I always wanted to be a teacher." "Otay I'll tell ha." "What y'all in here doing?" "Well I'm watching him without you.." "My bad." "Can we watch a movie?" "Yeah come on." We walked to the living room part and sat down. "What you want to watch?"  "Uh.......that one." He pointed to lion king. Xaiver put it on and we watched it. Eventually xaine fell asleep and I put him in his bed. "What time you going home?" "Before 10." "Oh ight you wanna watch the rest of this?" "It doesn't matter." He left it on. "You want something to drink? I don't have green tea though." I cracked a little smile. "You assume that's my favorite drink?" "Nah i know it is. I bet you have a whole pack in your room." "Ok Mr. stalker." He chuckled. "But for real you want something to drink?" "Water." He nodded. I just met him yet I feel like God sent him to me you know? Maybe not. "Here ya go." He said tossing the water at me. "So tell me something." "Like?" "What do you want to be in the future?" "Successful, free, Away from all this." "Not the answer I was looking for." "What answer were you looking for?" "Like Occupation wise." "Oh a teacher." "Really? You?" "What is that supposed to mean?" "I thought you were gonna say hippie, nurse, psychiatrist." "Hippie?" "Hey they say never judge a book by its cover right?" "I guess. What about you? A Lawyer, A dealership owner?" "Entrepreneur." "Okay big shot." "What you doing tomorrow?" "I don't know." "Tell me more stuff about you." "I don't have anything exciting." "What do you do?" "Read, Write, Sketch Cartoons." "What do you write?" "Poems." "Let me hear something." "Uh okay. Hold up." I looked through my notes on my phone and found one.
"Have you ever walked with a group of friends and felt like you were alone?
Have you ever been in a relationship and felt as if your dating yourself?
Have you ever been put out of every activity because you aren't the best at it.
Have you ever felt like your the only one in a room full of people?
I'm alone and lost. My soul has taught me to be alone. My friends won't know which way i go.
To leave is too much. To love you have to learn to trust.
Trying to be yourself hurts. All these strangers lurk. Whole time you just want to murk. Everybody. People telling you to get over yourself. Go to church. Your drowning in your fear. Wondering who's near. Nothing's clear... thats all I got." He looked at me with a look I can't even explain. "Wow that's so..I'm speechless. Your so deep." "Is it good?" "Yeah it's good." "Thank you. So what're your hobbies." "Nothing really. Why you all the way over there?" "I'm comfortable." He scooted a little closer. I got quiet and focused my attention back on the movie before it went off. His phone vibrated and me being nosey I looked over at it. Stacy popped up. He pressed decline. What if that's his girlfriend? What if he wants to take advantage of me? Maybe he just wants to be friends. But he's 20. "You okay?" "Yeah. Sorry did you say something." "Nah." His phone started ringing again. "Maybe you should answer that." "Nah." She kept calling. "My sister told me She wants me home." "Ight you want me to walk you?" "I'm good." "I'll text you." "Mmhm." I said walking out and going home.