loss for words

just me

time heals all wounds, but my wounds continue to bleed
i'll just die of blood loss
the longer i wait for you the more insane i grow

i want you, i need you

it hurts that i can't have you,
and each word spoken adds a new cut
time won't heal that
the longer i wait for you the more i bleed

i can't do this anymore
i can't talk to you knowing how i feel about you
i can't exist around you when you look at everyone else
i want you to love me,
not friend me

but it doesn't work like that
i can't be greedy
but i just can't help but act like that,

i love you
but it's making me crazy

why do you hate me?
is it because i tried to get rid of everyone sle?
it it because i succumbed to being selfish?
you won't even look at me anymore.
i swear i'm not a monster,
stop treating me like i am

i can't believe you left me.
you say that you can't stand to be with me anymore
but i got rid of my friends for you
i knew it was wrong but..
i did it because i love you

you shouldn't have deleted me like that,
erased from reality, floating in an indefinite empty void, forever.
how could you?
you are truly the worst human being i've ever encountered

but...i still love you though.

*[inspiration- doki doki literature club]