loss for words

wander

what if we were meant to part ways, only for us to find each other again?
through the madness of it all,
during the darkest of days.
because like Alice i've fallen deep into a hole.

the the world thinks its okay to hurt me,
and yet,
it's not okay for me to hurt myself.
i can't take it anymore,
so find me, and tell me the words i want to hear,
i need to hear.

"it's okay, it gonna be alright,
the sorrow won't win.
it will not take you away,
no, not again."

promise to stay by my side, and help me when things get blurry.
sever the demons whose grasp is so tight on my throat.
stop me from reminiscing about the memories that broke me entirely.

but it's not that easy.
it just doesn't work like that,
because,
you're not here.
we lost each long ago,
and i'll never find you,
as you'll never find me.

so, i'll be here.
wandering.
succumbing to the chaos my mind keeps telling me.

"it's over."