loss for words

empty voice

words, all the things i've never said.. caught in my throat, they made me choke. knives in my esophagus. but no matter what i can't get them out

regret, living in my heart. memories were just too painful to think about. "why?" said so many times. my voice longing for you to hear me, you've been waiting for so long. but i just can't work up the nerve.i can't bind the letters together, and spit them out in a way for you to understand.

complicated, only for me. i'm not confident enough to let my voice be heard. i'm afraid to be myself.

therefore, you got tired. of waiting that is. you moved on to someone else, someone better, braver, prettier than me. and it hurts more than i thought it would. i know i couldn't say what i wanted to say. what i needed to say, but i tried, and it hurts so bad knowing that it was that easy for you to move on. i should have expected it.

why wait for me? apparently, i wasn't worth it. no one could ever love me. someone unspoken like me.

so, leave it in the dust.
along with my heart