i smile through the tears,
i smile through the gloom,
i let the light of my false joy keep my dignity strong.
i put on an act that i'm okay.
but,
of course, i know i'm not
i'll keep pretending like my life depends on it.
but,
when there's no one around who am i really pretending for?
am i trying to prove to myself that the world doesn't get to me,
that their words don't actually get to me.
i had already accepted defeat,
but i still gave a smile.
i still said that i was fine.
i was a genuine liar,
to myself and those who perceive me.
i give smiles just as much as i cry tears.
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loss for words
Poetryevery day I'm left at a loss for words. ✘CW: mentions of suicide and self-harm © 2017-2023 alexxiajay, all rights reserved *i wrote this collection in 2017, i have only updated it recently. (fixed some grammatical errors, and changed a few things, b...
